phew

[whiskypriest]

eating home cooked food
my laundry is clean and away
I <3 having a day to myself
wearing my pjs
talkin on the phone
contemplating a cowboy outfit

so many reasons why i need to not be so busy crazy cracked out
personally I get cracked out before I get burned out
and thats bad enough
i hate being flaky and cranky and hungry

with more QT with myself
my self esteem has space to grow
catch up
I don't need to validate my life
work, acheivement, trying to be the bestest
I can just be
notice
I already am the bestest me I can be
I don't lack things to be proud of
il n'y a pas de feu
there is no fire
no emergency
no urgent call to prove it all

a tense pubescent 25 year old
stranger to contentment
tentatively invites him in
bustling in the kitchen
for the right pleasantry
to make him happy
not sure what to talk about
hoping he will stay awhile