Finally?
I finally got some sleep. Friday I stayed at a married couple's house (they are my friends, it's not like that, prevert!). We dyed my hair a rather odd shade of purple/red. We went to be around 3 or 3:30 a.m. and my girlfriend woke me up at 7:45 a.m. She was playing on her computer. That was so early! ZOMGWTFBBQ11
Saturday morning we had brunch in OC. I took a nap on their couch then went home. That night the roommate and I went to a Halo 3 party at Sam's house. Sam and I briefly dated, sort of? after Aaron and I broke up. Mainly we'd go to dinner or the movies then just go back to his place and sleep. He bit my ear once, which normally means the end of my icy exterior but somehow I resisted that night.
Any who, Sam is also roommates with the man who got between Aaron and I. It's always a little awkward being there, but I needed to be social so there I was.
The living room was the Halo 3 room. Sam's bedroom had a D&D type game going and David's room was trivial pursuit. Even though it made me feel like puking to be in that room, remembering all the things that had caused me so much pain, I still wanted to play Trivial Pursuit. I came in second.
I grew bored of the game so I went and watched the RPG and quickly fell asleep curled up behind Sam who was nice enough to pet me every so often. While it was nice, it just made me think about the one person I want more than anything. Cookie for those who can guess it.
Eventually everyone started leaving and I was still out cold on the floor behind Sam. He told me to just sleep in his bed, which I did. He eventually joined me and then got up. When he came back he said, "Dani is joining us." He's one spoiled bastard. Two hot chicks in his bed at once? Dayum. But we all remained clothed, ha!
I slept until almost 1 p.m. Apparently, I really needed the sleep.
Sam made breakfast. Dani, the roommate (he slept on the couch) and I played Rummy. Then we were looking at something on the computer. Dani and Matt left the room and Sam tried to kiss me. I told him no.
Here's the thing. I miss Aaron. He's all I want. I know I can't have him. I need time to heal because until I do, no one can compete with the Aaron phenomenon as Erik calls it. He would know, he's getting burned by it.
And then there'd Erik. Sweet, wonderful human being. But he's too short, too old, too disorganized, too ready to just live with whatever happens to him. He certainly got me to stop crying but he just doesn't give me all I need.
You see, this is why I need alone time. I need to decide what it is I want, what I need. Thus far I know I want:
• Facial hair - I love beards, sideburns, mustaches. They're all wonderful.
• A minimum height of 5'8" - Hanging out with Kitty a couple weekends ago, he gave me a couple hugs when he could sense I was going to cry. It was nice. I felt like I fit perfectly. I want that again.
• Intelligence - The one great thing about dating a rocket scientist is he knows a lot. He picks up on things quickly. He knows random factoids like I do. Maybe he's an anomaly, but I liked that.
• Nearby - If Erik lived even within an hour's distance from me, I'm sure we'd be officially together. I can't take doing the distance bullshit. It kills me. I like being able to say, "I'm not feeling good tonight, can you come over and make soup for me?" I want a physical, as well as an emotional, closeness.
• Honesty - This should be higher on the list. How did I forget about this? I don't like being lied to. I don't like having to piece things together. I don't like finding out I only got to hear half of the truth. I mean really you think you're sparing my feelings by dodging my questions, but a) you're fueling the journalist intuition and helping me hone my skills by having to drag the answer out of you and b) in the long run, I'll find out what's going on and I'll be more devastated that you didn't tell me the truth tin the first place.
• Being active - I never thought I'd say this, but I miss how active Aaron was. Whether he was running or convincing me to go hiking or kayaking with him, I might bitch about it, but in the end I really enjoyed doing it. I miss playing tennis. I really miss kayaking. Plus I like sweaty boys.
I'm going to continue adding to this list.
Saturday morning we had brunch in OC. I took a nap on their couch then went home. That night the roommate and I went to a Halo 3 party at Sam's house. Sam and I briefly dated, sort of? after Aaron and I broke up. Mainly we'd go to dinner or the movies then just go back to his place and sleep. He bit my ear once, which normally means the end of my icy exterior but somehow I resisted that night.
Any who, Sam is also roommates with the man who got between Aaron and I. It's always a little awkward being there, but I needed to be social so there I was.
The living room was the Halo 3 room. Sam's bedroom had a D&D type game going and David's room was trivial pursuit. Even though it made me feel like puking to be in that room, remembering all the things that had caused me so much pain, I still wanted to play Trivial Pursuit. I came in second.
I grew bored of the game so I went and watched the RPG and quickly fell asleep curled up behind Sam who was nice enough to pet me every so often. While it was nice, it just made me think about the one person I want more than anything. Cookie for those who can guess it.
Eventually everyone started leaving and I was still out cold on the floor behind Sam. He told me to just sleep in his bed, which I did. He eventually joined me and then got up. When he came back he said, "Dani is joining us." He's one spoiled bastard. Two hot chicks in his bed at once? Dayum. But we all remained clothed, ha!
I slept until almost 1 p.m. Apparently, I really needed the sleep.
Sam made breakfast. Dani, the roommate (he slept on the couch) and I played Rummy. Then we were looking at something on the computer. Dani and Matt left the room and Sam tried to kiss me. I told him no.
Here's the thing. I miss Aaron. He's all I want. I know I can't have him. I need time to heal because until I do, no one can compete with the Aaron phenomenon as Erik calls it. He would know, he's getting burned by it.
And then there'd Erik. Sweet, wonderful human being. But he's too short, too old, too disorganized, too ready to just live with whatever happens to him. He certainly got me to stop crying but he just doesn't give me all I need.
You see, this is why I need alone time. I need to decide what it is I want, what I need. Thus far I know I want:
• Facial hair - I love beards, sideburns, mustaches. They're all wonderful.
• A minimum height of 5'8" - Hanging out with Kitty a couple weekends ago, he gave me a couple hugs when he could sense I was going to cry. It was nice. I felt like I fit perfectly. I want that again.
• Intelligence - The one great thing about dating a rocket scientist is he knows a lot. He picks up on things quickly. He knows random factoids like I do. Maybe he's an anomaly, but I liked that.
• Nearby - If Erik lived even within an hour's distance from me, I'm sure we'd be officially together. I can't take doing the distance bullshit. It kills me. I like being able to say, "I'm not feeling good tonight, can you come over and make soup for me?" I want a physical, as well as an emotional, closeness.
• Honesty - This should be higher on the list. How did I forget about this? I don't like being lied to. I don't like having to piece things together. I don't like finding out I only got to hear half of the truth. I mean really you think you're sparing my feelings by dodging my questions, but a) you're fueling the journalist intuition and helping me hone my skills by having to drag the answer out of you and b) in the long run, I'll find out what's going on and I'll be more devastated that you didn't tell me the truth tin the first place.
• Being active - I never thought I'd say this, but I miss how active Aaron was. Whether he was running or convincing me to go hiking or kayaking with him, I might bitch about it, but in the end I really enjoyed doing it. I miss playing tennis. I really miss kayaking. Plus I like sweaty boys.
I'm going to continue adding to this list.