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My OCD is seriously starting to take its toll on me...i think it may be getting worse, and its beginning to affect my homelife. Tonight it was awful. Terry is the messiest f'ing person i've ever met. i feel like I have to wash the dishes before i eat off of them just becuase he washed them. I can't stand the way he leaves his dip bottle on the end table...i throw it away everytime i see one sitting there and it pisses him off more than anything in the world. I can't help it though, i just cant sit there and watch tv or walk through the living room knowing that his bottle os nasty ass spit is sitting right next to me. It made my mom cry tonight because i was like UUUUGGGgHHHHH!!! I can't eat off of any of these dishes, they all look dirty, and he was like well you can do the dishes from now on and i was like well why dont you just put them in the dishwasher and rinse them off before you do and he was like you dont appreciate anything i do and im just like thats it terry....i dont...becuase you dont do ANYTHING! I hate that! There's no way i'll ever be able to marry a lazy man, i just cant handle it...im like clean up the f'ing yard you pig...quite leaving your junk laying around like white trash lives here...then he yells back stupid immature comments that make him sound like hes five and i dont argue back which pisses him off even more and then my mom cries, its becoming unbearable...MONDAY!!!! he was off...i came home early from school and he was supposed to be trimming the bushes, and raking the leaves and burning them...WAS HE?!?! NO!!!! it was 2 o f'ing clock in the afternoon and he was still in his PJS!!!!!!!!!!!!! playing the damn playstation WTF???????? it annoys the hell out of me...i just needed to vent and i typed this so fast that i didnt use hardly any punctuation or correct grammar and i dont feel like going back to correct so youll just have to deal...i know its going to drive me insane, ill probably go back and edit it and change it... I HATE bad grammar! sorry...that is all...if i see a shooting star, im going to wish that my mom can find someone to make her happy and has CLEAN living habits and NO kids!!!!! the end