come on now dammit!!!!

[whenthenight13]

wow.. i really cant win now matter what i do can i??? see i dont even wanna win.. i just wanna be remotely close in the runnings.. but i cannot do that. i cannot be something that you used ot have.. i cannot be someone that i am not.. i cannot be everything you want... because i do not live up to expectation.. i never have, and if u expect me to... i will always dissappoint you.. probably just like i already have. i know that that is a simple concept really.. but its true just as much as it is simple. i am me.. thats all.. and i am sorry if i am not enough.....

i really dunno what the hell i am doing.....
so rant i shall...
questions? comments? concerns?