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It's funny how alone you can feel sometimes. I also feel tired and stressed.
I'm quitting my job at Abercrombie because I just don't have time for it anymore. Between cross country meets n practices, chorus activities,soccer starting, theres gonna be no time leftover to work. So I basically shot all that training time down the drain. I usually love staying busy, but not right now.
I dont understand a certain situation right now at all and it's seriously unhealthy. I think about it all day, and am still lost with no answers. Hooking up with guys in college is a bad idea. Especially guys that you've liked for over a year now. I don't know how anybody else would handle it, but my way is waiting for his calls and IMS that im not receiving and getting even more worked up at myself.
I can't even talk to my mom anymore because she feels like she has to control my every move, and how I handled my job, and always needs to know whats going on. I can't talk to her about Tyler because she couldn't even begin to understand.. and I can't really talk to anyone. Everybodys tried to help me but I'm still sad and confused. I should just talk to him. But I'm invisioning all these people telling him how obsessed I am with him and him completely avoiding me.
I just wish I could take a long vacation.
I have no idea where I'm going to school.
I'm quitting my job at Abercrombie because I just don't have time for it anymore. Between cross country meets n practices, chorus activities,soccer starting, theres gonna be no time leftover to work. So I basically shot all that training time down the drain. I usually love staying busy, but not right now.
I dont understand a certain situation right now at all and it's seriously unhealthy. I think about it all day, and am still lost with no answers. Hooking up with guys in college is a bad idea. Especially guys that you've liked for over a year now. I don't know how anybody else would handle it, but my way is waiting for his calls and IMS that im not receiving and getting even more worked up at myself.
I can't even talk to my mom anymore because she feels like she has to control my every move, and how I handled my job, and always needs to know whats going on. I can't talk to her about Tyler because she couldn't even begin to understand.. and I can't really talk to anyone. Everybodys tried to help me but I'm still sad and confused. I should just talk to him. But I'm invisioning all these people telling him how obsessed I am with him and him completely avoiding me.
I just wish I could take a long vacation.
I have no idea where I'm going to school.