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I don't really use this anymore.. I just myspace. I never liked this because I dont ever truely write about what I feel because I feel like I'm being judged. I dont know.
Saturday was my first hardcore cross country meet. Can I just say nervous? I felt like my insides were gonna come out of my throat. The worst part of running is the before and after. Before your questioning your every meaning, and after your questioning if your even alive. I finished with 36:06 or something for 3 miles. This week's gonna be insane with float building,powderpuff,xc practice,gator growl and everything. I cant wait though.
I was dissapointed with team tonight. We didn't pray at all or talk about how it was 9/11. I enjoyed the worship songs but it just should of been more personal. I get that their trying to get more people to go but I dont want it to be different.
I don't get guys. They really need to figure out what they want and go out and get it. I need to stop letting guys control my life and worry about them so much. It really doesn't matter and if something happens, then it happens.
Saturday was my first hardcore cross country meet. Can I just say nervous? I felt like my insides were gonna come out of my throat. The worst part of running is the before and after. Before your questioning your every meaning, and after your questioning if your even alive. I finished with 36:06 or something for 3 miles. This week's gonna be insane with float building,powderpuff,xc practice,gator growl and everything. I cant wait though.
I was dissapointed with team tonight. We didn't pray at all or talk about how it was 9/11. I enjoyed the worship songs but it just should of been more personal. I get that their trying to get more people to go but I dont want it to be different.
I don't get guys. They really need to figure out what they want and go out and get it. I need to stop letting guys control my life and worry about them so much. It really doesn't matter and if something happens, then it happens.