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ALRIGHT EVERYONE!
finally an update.
were to begin, today was for a most part a good day, if my cupcakes that i made for
1. William fonner, because i copied all of his history stuff.
2. Justin, because its his birthday today.
3. connie, becase today was her last day..
did not fall over the 3rd floor hallway
ugh i threw up in the bathroom i was so just pissed off my life is so fucked sometimes i feel like nothing good could possibly come from anything in my life or around my life.
me and my ocd, and panic attacks seem to have been getting better, but when i feel panic attacks coming on i compulsively wash my hands like a retard. i dont even wash them i just hold them under water and hyperventilate.. wail kids walk into the bathroom at school and look at me like im on crack. i do have a temper problem. I almost hit a kid today.
because im a bitch.
I had a talk with mariah about this shit i've ben hearing about me doing something to mariah in 8th grade (according to eila) BUT GUESS WHAT! mariah told me i diddnt do anything, i told her i was sorry if i did and she just diddnt want to say anything.. but i really wish people would cut out all of this fucking highschool drama.
i love my tutorial class, mostly because justin (the freshman that is supostue be in my grade but isnt) and Eric porrior is in it. and tara is in it shes aamazing. eric was my 'best friend of the day' i love my friends, i still havent got eric a birthday present =[ 2 months.! till i turn 16! stare down the sun is going to be at my party i guess wich is pretty sick. that is if the guitar player isnt an ass about it beecause i grew up with the drummer at most of my family get togethers.
then ill have a party, and get a permit and my life will be good.
once i get my license ill be in ware everyday.
hmm what else.
im reading lord of the flies
i have to clean my room tomorrow
i need to make cupcakes for monday
my foot is numb
my head hurts
im cold
on a nother note and on deep insite of me. We Were learning about plato in english <333333 yummy! but we were talking about his version of a euopia hes book the 'repuplic' and my enlish teacher started talking about how teachers are supostue put these things in our head like 'democrocy is the best goverment' and whatnot.. wich makes you think well ME think that dose that meen that most of my thoughts arnt really mine.. but programed there for me, by teachers.. and people before me that were previously programed to program me?
that thought gives me goosebumps, and makes me feel as if im one of those yellow/orange goldfish in that bag they put them in so you can bring them home.. in that bag, with no air, small space with people holding me up looking at me watching me.. monitoring me, sometimes i wish they would shake the bag and i would go belly up.
also, platos veiw on censorship changed MY veiw on censorship.. he said there should be. becase if people see the life on tv, violent and missleading on how the world really is, people think the world is really like that and live like that. Before there was actually tv, think of how much less scary the world was.. i use to be against censorship becase we have a right to say what we want and be ourselves.. but what if we are programed.. were not really ourselves, were someone else in a way. and there has to be guidlines somewere like if we say FREEDOM FREEDOM DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! nothing is stopping people from going off and killing people. and who could stop that we would be free to do whatever we wanted right.
the world is funny
i guess thats it my tounge hurts. bye.
finally an update.
were to begin, today was for a most part a good day, if my cupcakes that i made for
1. William fonner, because i copied all of his history stuff.
2. Justin, because its his birthday today.
3. connie, becase today was her last day..
did not fall over the 3rd floor hallway
ugh i threw up in the bathroom i was so just pissed off my life is so fucked sometimes i feel like nothing good could possibly come from anything in my life or around my life.
me and my ocd, and panic attacks seem to have been getting better, but when i feel panic attacks coming on i compulsively wash my hands like a retard. i dont even wash them i just hold them under water and hyperventilate.. wail kids walk into the bathroom at school and look at me like im on crack. i do have a temper problem. I almost hit a kid today.
because im a bitch.
I had a talk with mariah about this shit i've ben hearing about me doing something to mariah in 8th grade (according to eila) BUT GUESS WHAT! mariah told me i diddnt do anything, i told her i was sorry if i did and she just diddnt want to say anything.. but i really wish people would cut out all of this fucking highschool drama.
i love my tutorial class, mostly because justin (the freshman that is supostue be in my grade but isnt) and Eric porrior is in it. and tara is in it shes aamazing. eric was my 'best friend of the day' i love my friends, i still havent got eric a birthday present =[ 2 months.! till i turn 16! stare down the sun is going to be at my party i guess wich is pretty sick. that is if the guitar player isnt an ass about it beecause i grew up with the drummer at most of my family get togethers.
then ill have a party, and get a permit and my life will be good.
once i get my license ill be in ware everyday.
hmm what else.
im reading lord of the flies
i have to clean my room tomorrow
i need to make cupcakes for monday
my foot is numb
my head hurts
im cold
on a nother note and on deep insite of me. We Were learning about plato in english <333333 yummy! but we were talking about his version of a euopia hes book the 'repuplic' and my enlish teacher started talking about how teachers are supostue put these things in our head like 'democrocy is the best goverment' and whatnot.. wich makes you think well ME think that dose that meen that most of my thoughts arnt really mine.. but programed there for me, by teachers.. and people before me that were previously programed to program me?
that thought gives me goosebumps, and makes me feel as if im one of those yellow/orange goldfish in that bag they put them in so you can bring them home.. in that bag, with no air, small space with people holding me up looking at me watching me.. monitoring me, sometimes i wish they would shake the bag and i would go belly up.
also, platos veiw on censorship changed MY veiw on censorship.. he said there should be. becase if people see the life on tv, violent and missleading on how the world really is, people think the world is really like that and live like that. Before there was actually tv, think of how much less scary the world was.. i use to be against censorship becase we have a right to say what we want and be ourselves.. but what if we are programed.. were not really ourselves, were someone else in a way. and there has to be guidlines somewere like if we say FREEDOM FREEDOM DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! nothing is stopping people from going off and killing people. and who could stop that we would be free to do whatever we wanted right.
the world is funny
i guess thats it my tounge hurts. bye.