Choices and work rant

[wheatheart]

I've been trying to choose to be a better person.  Mostly in trying not to dwell on other people's shitty attitudes.  I have a bad habit of stewing and seething about things that stress me.  This has been a very very hard thing to accomplish.  Mostly when something happens and I own up to my mistake, apologize for it, rectify the mistake to the best of my ability and someone is still shitty to me, I want to get violent.  I have never become violent towards anyone and I dont plan to.  But I think everyone has had the repressed urge at some point.  Also when said person says they want to help but their attitude and continued complaints about their employees say otherwise, that means they are a liar and I hate liars.  Hypocrites are liars.  So fuck you and the horse you rode in on.  Me and my people continually sweep up your shit and have to take the heat for you because your shitty company is under a fucking contract.  And I still have to smile and be nice to your dumb ass.

So these choices to be a better person are especially hard.  I need a drink.