crazy couple days.....
Been some crazy last few days....
Monday-Got in Sara Heels face about the shit with Alex. and she backed down like a little bitch saying she didnt want to fight me and bullshit like that. Pretty funny but i didnt get to fight her like i wanted to. i wanted to hit her so bad but i couldnt cuz she wouldnt hit me first and i promised the big guy (dad) that i wouldnt hit her unless she hit me first. so yeah that didnt work out as well as i planned.
Tuesday-talked to alex for the first time since we broke up..that was a little hard. we kinda argued at first but then we talked like civilzed people and it was cool. and we talked about all the shit that got us fighting in our relationship and come to find out what broke us up was what we both said we werent going to listen to....RUMORS!! and it kinda pissed me off. i know i was unhappy some times with him but at the same time i was so happy with him and we broke up over shit that wasnt even true and then the best part. we could have been friends afterwards but once again rumors stopped us. i heard everything of how he was going to go out with sara and shit and he had no intention of doing that and it pissed me off and it wasnt even true. guess ive learned my lesson...NEVER LISTEN TO RUMORS IN A RELATIONSHIP!! but i have danny so i cant stress over that shit, i dont want to ruin things with him.....
Wednesday-Went to Robins for the rest of the week...alex called me there and i guess him and his dad are having problems again...kinda sucks and i feel bad but the only thing i can do is be a friend and talk to him about it and i just have to hope that danny doesnt get mad at me for being friends with him and what not. I'm kinda getting sick of being at robins cuz i cant deal with those kids...im gonna end up strangling them by the end of the summer. now i know what nikki had to deal with babysitting all the time and not being able to do the shit she wanted to. haha...but hey im getting paid so i cant complain about it all the time.
and now to today...i got my report card...:(!! i got a 61.6 overall. i still only failed 2 classes. math with a 63 and gym with a 44 overall. but the thing that really gets me is when i dont try to do decent but now that i tried i FAIL!! i dont get it. i really tried and i didnt do good at all. the only grade that shows an improvement is math..i went for a 55 to a 72. and i still failed. god i hate school. i wish i could drop out and get somewhere in life but i cant. and my dad would never let me drop out. he would not let me live there and shit. i dont understand why he is strict about grades. i really dont get it. how the hell am i supposed to tell big steve that i failed? he is going to kill me....:(!!!! i told him i was going to try and i did try and i didnt get anywhere. man he is going to be so mad at me. he may be mad at me for all my other grades but i hope he at least is happy that i got a 72 in math. i cant believe i failed by 2 DAMN POINTS!! that makes me so mad. well i dont feel like writing anymore....im out...
Monday-Got in Sara Heels face about the shit with Alex. and she backed down like a little bitch saying she didnt want to fight me and bullshit like that. Pretty funny but i didnt get to fight her like i wanted to. i wanted to hit her so bad but i couldnt cuz she wouldnt hit me first and i promised the big guy (dad) that i wouldnt hit her unless she hit me first. so yeah that didnt work out as well as i planned.
Tuesday-talked to alex for the first time since we broke up..that was a little hard. we kinda argued at first but then we talked like civilzed people and it was cool. and we talked about all the shit that got us fighting in our relationship and come to find out what broke us up was what we both said we werent going to listen to....RUMORS!! and it kinda pissed me off. i know i was unhappy some times with him but at the same time i was so happy with him and we broke up over shit that wasnt even true and then the best part. we could have been friends afterwards but once again rumors stopped us. i heard everything of how he was going to go out with sara and shit and he had no intention of doing that and it pissed me off and it wasnt even true. guess ive learned my lesson...NEVER LISTEN TO RUMORS IN A RELATIONSHIP!! but i have danny so i cant stress over that shit, i dont want to ruin things with him.....
Wednesday-Went to Robins for the rest of the week...alex called me there and i guess him and his dad are having problems again...kinda sucks and i feel bad but the only thing i can do is be a friend and talk to him about it and i just have to hope that danny doesnt get mad at me for being friends with him and what not. I'm kinda getting sick of being at robins cuz i cant deal with those kids...im gonna end up strangling them by the end of the summer. now i know what nikki had to deal with babysitting all the time and not being able to do the shit she wanted to. haha...but hey im getting paid so i cant complain about it all the time.
and now to today...i got my report card...:(!! i got a 61.6 overall. i still only failed 2 classes. math with a 63 and gym with a 44 overall. but the thing that really gets me is when i dont try to do decent but now that i tried i FAIL!! i dont get it. i really tried and i didnt do good at all. the only grade that shows an improvement is math..i went for a 55 to a 72. and i still failed. god i hate school. i wish i could drop out and get somewhere in life but i cant. and my dad would never let me drop out. he would not let me live there and shit. i dont understand why he is strict about grades. i really dont get it. how the hell am i supposed to tell big steve that i failed? he is going to kill me....:(!!!! i told him i was going to try and i did try and i didnt get anywhere. man he is going to be so mad at me. he may be mad at me for all my other grades but i hope he at least is happy that i got a 72 in math. i cant believe i failed by 2 DAMN POINTS!! that makes me so mad. well i dont feel like writing anymore....im out...