*Where Ever You Go, Whatever You Do*

[whats_wrong_wme]

Surprisingly, things are going really good right now.  Me and Michael have decided to fix everything and now we both want to be a family again.  Sometimes I wonder why some of the things that happen with us, together for a while, break up for a while, he goes back to his ex and then he just like wakes up and realizes that he wants his family to be around again and bam we are back together and things are fine until he gets lonely or wants AK again.  Sometimes I wonder if its a game, sometimes I wonder if he really does love me, if he really does want his family and such in his life like he claims he does.  What I dont think he understands is the fact that I have been one of the only ones to be there and really love him through everything, and I have never went anywhere.  I love him to much just to let him go and forget anything we ever had.  I know I have said that before on this damn thing through the years with other guys but this is so much different.  Usually I can just walk away and something about him, no matter what he has done, what he will do or anything. I still love him unconditionally and will always be there for him.  I cant wait until we get married and are the happy family I know we have the potential to be and can be once I get back to the states.

Everything with my baby is going good. I find out what it is tomorrow.  I am so hoping for it to be a boy.  Daddy wants a boy too but if we get a girl it will be okay too.  I will love her just the same.

Time to get my ass back to work....Long day today...