well well well
well life.. let's just say things could be so much better. i haven't felt luckier to have pat around - he's my beauty, my fun, my smiles, my health, my dreams, .. my life. without him, i would fall... i love you.
so i've been writing and writing and writing .. i have so many stories and poems and songs that have been created this past week. i'm not sure if i'll put them up here yet. many are very personal..but we'll see.
..okay okay i lied. there's no secret - sue me.
it's been a very eventful week .. monday and tuesday went to practice for the cheer try-outs. but wednesday i didn't actually go to try-outs. ahhh. the squad got pissed and told me i would've made varsity and that b/c i didnt go they're stuck with another loser that should've been bumped to JV. they can shove it. i just don't want to get into that this year - maybe next. it's stressful and the last thing i need is more stress .. wednesday night pat n eric picked me up, went to katies for a bon fire and stayed there. next morning we went to albany at the plaza to skate...well watch leland/pat/joe skate .. went to my house after for food... all of us [me.pat.eric.katie.tim.leland.joe] .. the "skaters" left and went to the church to skate, we sat around watching tv. got bitched at by father. haha got grounded [cuz it was in the house] friday sat around.
yesterday was so bad
today pat's coming over.
i'm a dreamer:
[i love the rain in the afternoon]
[yet another survey...they're addicting:]
'You' Stuff
001. What is your name: Taylor Alexis Pariseau
002. Spell your name backwards: Rolyat
003. Date of birth: January 10, 1989
004. Male or female: Female
005. Astrological sign: capricorn
006. Nicknames: tay, taytay, tayto[only scotty],pita
007. Occupation: .. a student?? 'vliet high
008. Height: i think..5'4"
009. Sexuality: ..straight
010. Hair color: ? can't tell ? my brother asked me yesterday and i coudn't answer - it's goldish/orangish/pinkish/rustyish[aww rusty, miss ya]
011. Eye color: baby blue eyes
012. Where were you born: cohoes
013. Where do you reside now: watervliet, ny
014. Age: 15
015. Screen names: chickflickz/somethingunwritn/lilpompom14
016. E-mail addy: lilpompom14@aol.com
017. What does your screen name/email stand for: ...1-random, it's from 6th grade/2-something corporate and unwritten law/3-chereleader? eh?
018. What is your LJ name: whatiknow
019. What does your LJ name stand for: fall out boy song .. "where is your boy tonight i hope he is a gentleman. and maybe he won't find out what i know - you were the last good thing about this part of town"
020. Pets: .. "un-immediate" relations, but still considered mine- kitcat and marley
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: 15
022. Piercings: just one in each ear
023. Tattoo's: getting one soon, on my left shoulder, "it's not hard to dream" - inside of a big star with like small sparle stars around it
024. Shoe size: 7
025. Righty or lefty: Righty
026. Wearing: uh that crisscross/checkered type design with pastelyellow and light blue.. and a pastel yellow top with blue writing, - a pajama set i pulled together on my own :-P , such a good "organizer"
027. Hearing: gilligan's island comercial with bowling for soup on MTV
028. Feeling: nervous
029. Eating/drinking: nada
Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff
061. Have you ever been in love: yes
062. How many people have you said 'i love you' to: all my friends, but as in a guy-girl "relationship" love, said to 4, meant to 2.
063. How many people have you been in love with: been "in love" twice - with the same person
064. How many people have you kissed: dont even ask that.
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: yes
066. How many people have you dated: like from 8th grade to now - 4 .. before that i don't count, cuz they were like "aw you're cute, go out with me?" and then we "break up" a week later haaa. it's so cute though thinking about it. [haha alyssa and audrey - remember when we got so nasty with each other because of nick! haha, what a triangle. it was cute if you think about it, how we were "in love" with him haha.now we're all like best friends with him.]
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl: tolerance[good one alyssa, so true], sence of humor, adventurous, strong confidence [but not too strong to notice it], and most importantly - the spark
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: voice, the way they interact with other people,
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: don't "go for" anything, just if he seems interesting and we feel for each other, why not give it a shot?
073. Do you have a crush right now: ew no, but there is this kid pat, don't know if you know him, he just can't stop calling me and i think he may be a stalker ;-)
074. If so who is it: pat's the only one i have eyes for.
075. Do you believe in love at first sight: i used to. but if i heard my friends say they "loved" someone they haven't even spoken to, i wouldn't believe it
076. Do you remember your first love: awwww....oct 3rd, '03 - cailden's surprise bday party .. pat and me barely knew each other .. flirted [at a distance] .. oct 4, '03 - the haunted house, i helped out so i could spend time with pat and get to know him better. that was a great day. later on the family dance. he got nervous and we danced and he ran to the payfone to call larissa, came back went to the door saw the stars...flirted "so...are you gonna kiss me or what?" so many butterflies. i was the happiest girl.
077. Who is the first person you kissed: ..?pat whittman[didn't really count hahah] so probably nick[haha secrets, we loved that place lol...with my mom and "the Nark" watching us.]
078. Do you believe in fate: yes, but it scares me
079. Do you believe in soul mates: of course i do
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: i hope my predictions are right.
~Family Stuff~
104. How many siblings do you have: 2 brothers, older and younger
105. What are your parents names: thomas and stephanie
106. What are your siblings names: .. tommy[justin thomas] and scotty
107. How many siblings does your mother have: 1 brother
108. How many siblings does your father have: 1 sister
109. Where are your parents from: mom from berlin, dad from schaghticoke
110. Is your family close: not at all
111. Does your family get together for holidays: sometimes, usually not
112. Do you have a drunk uncle: not a uncle, but probably one of the great uncles, there being about 20
113. Any medical problems run through your family: depression, ms, breast cancer
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee: my mimare used to wear a wig, b/c she had cancer, but she recently passed.
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews: well .. none that i've heard of, but you know scott - that tramp.
116. Are your parents divorced: yes since i was 4/5
117. Do you have step parents: ex-stepparents...divorced also. billy[stepdad] raina [stepmom]
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family: plenty of times.
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country: not the immediate family. but my gram's gram came from poland.:-D
Music Stuff
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: uh.."stop" by matchbox twenty? idunno..all i can think of. "yes it's true that i believe i'm weaker than i used to be. i wear my heart out on my sleeve and i forget the rest of me. yes there's times i've been afraid and there's no harm in that i pray - cuz i'm more frightened everyday, someone will take the hope i have away"
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own: none are embarassing, because it means that i used to listen to them...but i regret being a die-hard baskstreet boys fan, although i thought they were the greatest thing when i was in 5th grade.
123. What's the best cd you own: clarity, and my something corporate/reel big fish mix i made.
124. What song do you absolutely hate: aw man, i dunno song names but i absolutely hate the bestie boys
125. Do you sing in the shower: all the time.
126. What song reminds you of that special someone: "she paints me blue" something corporate [and teenage love was underground, tonight i'll break the surface]
Favorites
152. Color: light/pastel yellow [always has been]
153. Food: shrimp alfredo/tootsie rolls/quesedillas from taco bell and my kitchen [scott - remember, "coo-ey-sah-dill-ahs" haha .. and "no i thought i'd go sit outside in the pouring rain" - taco bell at crossgates]
154. Song: for me this is heaven/only ashes/konstantine/grand theft autumn/goodbye sky harbor
155. Show: one tree hill
156. School subject: math
157. Band/singer/artist: now? jimmyeatworld/katy rose
159. Outfit: dont' have one ...? i wear jeans and sweatshirt everyday
160. Radio station: 103.1 or 102.7
161. Movie: donnie darko/clockwork orange/elephant/rollarcoaster/finding nemo/shrek
162. Pair of shoes: ??uh...?? red sneakers
163. Cartoon: king of the hill/family guy/strawberry shortcake
164. Actor: mathew lillard i <3 him, and jonny depp [in edward scissorhands]
165. Actress: julia stiles
166. Potato chip: sour cream and onion
167. Drink: yager
168: Soda: pepsi
169. Holiday: valentines day
170. Perfume/cologne: 'dream' by gap
171. Pizza topping: cheese
172. Jello flavor: grape
173. Lunch meat: turkey.
174. Card Game: BullShit or Spit.[haha yep, all i know how to play, but shh]
175. Video game: uhh .. i hate video games. grr
176. Website: ..livejournal [obviosly]
177. Book: "this book will change your life"
178. Computer game: i dunno?? freecell?
179. Number: 28687454236804645
180. Cereal: hmmm
181. Comedian: jim brewer
182. Dessert: banana split
183. Disney character: goofy
184. Clothing store: delias
185. Past time: watching the stars
186. Teacher: mr. cornell hahahaaaaaa
187. Childhood toy: beanie baby's i have millions.
188. Carnival game/ride: rainbow
189. Candy bar: kitkats
190. Magazine: cosmopolitan
191. Salad dressing: Ranch.
192. Thing to do on the weekend: sleep in
193. Hot drink: cappiccino
194. Season: spring and winter
195. Sport to watch: skateboarding and cheerleading and football
196. Person to talk to online: afton, ashley watson, nick
Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits
197. What color are your sheets: white with big polka dots of pink/orange/yellow/red and second set is lime green
198. What color are your bedroom walls: white littered with shit
199. Do you have posters on your wall: 9 posters and a bunch of little things like cards and pics my friends drew.
200. If so of what: 1 blink 182, 6 emerica signed posters, and 2 faery posters
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom: nope, but xmas computer is going in my room
202. How many pillows are on your bed: 2
203. What do you normally sleep in: tshirt and pj pants
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: ..they're just pajamas...but prolly my tank "i kissed..." and on the butt of the mini short/undies it says "ashton [heart]"
205. Whats on your dresser: dont have a dresser yet, i have a walk-in closet
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed: a regular bed??
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom: no, i dont have a house fone. but i have a cell fone
208. ---Where did this one go?---
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: i was being chased by a big [black] guy around the mall of america hahaha i have weird dreams. it was last night. for some reason tho the mall of america had the albany museum in it lol
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes the 'sweet dreams" bear that pat got me last xmas
211. How many people can comfortably sleep comfortably in your bed: only person that will ever sleep in my bed is me...well pat can too, but yea i wouldn't allow the test of "how many it can hold"
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions: idk - i move a lot in my sleep though
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: Nope.
214. Do you snore: when i drink
215. How about drool: same as '214' and also if i cry myself to sleep i wake up with drool
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room: oh yes - i would be so lost without it too
217. What color is the carpet in your room: brown? and i have a green/blue rug in there
218. What's under your bed: the floor - i have no frame on it.
"piece by piece and bit by bit - i'll break this down for you real slow" .. "i always catch the clock - it's 11:11 now you wanna talk"