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sometimes i just want to kick myself.
i spent a whole night, crying about how wrecked i am and how much i need to change. i made list after list of what i could do to turn my life around. i was fully motivated for a good five hours to break away from my bad habits and start doing things right.
yeah.
no longer motivated.
(why does this have to be so damn addicting?)
i know i'm just throwing my life away, but i just caaaaaan't break away.
i can't. i won't. whatever.
i hate my world.
i hate this loneliness.
i hate my parents.
i hate my reflection.
i'd give anything to be a part of his world.
wait. how did i get onto that subject.
everything always leads back to him.
it's like we're fucking meant to be.
if he only knew who the heck i was.
i wish my parents were vegetarians.
it would be so much more easier to .... eat.
i spent a whole night, crying about how wrecked i am and how much i need to change. i made list after list of what i could do to turn my life around. i was fully motivated for a good five hours to break away from my bad habits and start doing things right.
yeah.
no longer motivated.
(why does this have to be so damn addicting?)
i know i'm just throwing my life away, but i just caaaaaan't break away.
i can't. i won't. whatever.
i hate my world.
i hate this loneliness.
i hate my parents.
i hate my reflection.
i'd give anything to be a part of his world.
wait. how did i get onto that subject.
everything always leads back to him.
it's like we're fucking meant to be.
if he only knew who the heck i was.
i wish my parents were vegetarians.
it would be so much more easier to .... eat.