A Day After
I still try to avoid the thought of you being gone. When night hits the sky I try to break from this rock. I promised to never forget you. I promised to hold your memories tight to my chest, but as everyday goes by I find myself remembering less. It's rare to say that I don't cry anymore. I learned to look forward instead of being trapped on December the 3rd. & I kept your facial expression and your 'I love you too' in a box stored in my room. When the storm arrives I always open it to remind myself of you. & people still stab me with words and torture my soul, but my heart is still intact with your name engraved to it to protect my home. I kept your favorite quote as my life motto. & best believe that when it starts to rain I always run for shelter. I find it within myself a piece of you. The strength that holds my deteriorating body well together seems to have a connection to your lovely voice. Although, your presence not being around me any longer hurts me the most, I find myself thinking twice before going back to the day you left us all.
& sometimes I wonder if you're ever in my room when I type you letters. Whether your spirit still lingers beside me when I think about you. I thank you and talk to you from time to time. Dad keeps saying I can't talk to the dead because they're dead, I still do it to keep myself calm. I don't know if it's all in my head, but I honestly can care less. I love you and I was happy when you were freed of pain, but I was sad that I'd never see you again. I hope that you're the one to take me when my day to leave comes because I wouldn't want to get lost. Your my guide to the better; Your the person I will always trust.