took what i hated and made it apart of me
ever feel yourself going numb? thats where i am now. no i havent done anything stupid, nomatter how much i want to. i do entertain the thought everyday though. enough of that.
over the last few nights ive a different dream but always with the same person. as of right now i cant remember what was in them except for one, but this person was always there in them. i only have the general feeling of them left. whats weird is its a good feeling, like he was keeping me sane in a nightmare. i haven't seen him in a while now, and i highly doubt i will ever see him again. but its strange that for the past few nights ive been dreaming about him. i dont like it. i dont want the thought of him, even in a dream, to be a comfort. in the one that i remember, i was staying in a hotel somewhere, with a bunch of my friends, but these friends, i guess they are made up ones, cause they dont exist in my real life. but anyway, im walking around the room and i open the bathroom door and there he is. he gets this big smile on his face, but i turn away and try to run out. he comes after me and starts to say something, i dont remember what it was but it calmed me down and we just sat on the floor and held each other, and i actually felt happy, even when i woke up i could still feel it.
now im a person who doesnt like that touchy feely oh hold me while i cry stuff. so for me to dream about being held and liking it is strange.
i can't be in a relationship........im too unstable and i cant open myself up that much. i can't be vulnerable, not anymore.
tired of all this shit,
Meagan
over the last few nights ive a different dream but always with the same person. as of right now i cant remember what was in them except for one, but this person was always there in them. i only have the general feeling of them left. whats weird is its a good feeling, like he was keeping me sane in a nightmare. i haven't seen him in a while now, and i highly doubt i will ever see him again. but its strange that for the past few nights ive been dreaming about him. i dont like it. i dont want the thought of him, even in a dream, to be a comfort. in the one that i remember, i was staying in a hotel somewhere, with a bunch of my friends, but these friends, i guess they are made up ones, cause they dont exist in my real life. but anyway, im walking around the room and i open the bathroom door and there he is. he gets this big smile on his face, but i turn away and try to run out. he comes after me and starts to say something, i dont remember what it was but it calmed me down and we just sat on the floor and held each other, and i actually felt happy, even when i woke up i could still feel it.
now im a person who doesnt like that touchy feely oh hold me while i cry stuff. so for me to dream about being held and liking it is strange.
i can't be in a relationship........im too unstable and i cant open myself up that much. i can't be vulnerable, not anymore.
tired of all this shit,
Meagan