so this is life?
So it's been a long time since I've posted.
I suppose you could say not a lot has happened. This, however, isn't entirely true. Life is happening, which is a series of non eventful events, including going to work and coming home and occasionally seeing the guys. Someone told me, it's like a forever Summer, except with bills and responsibility. Not as fun, you might think.
A few extraordinary things have happened though, don't get me wrong. My cousin got married and seems very happy about this. I filmed a video for it, but my computer is recognizing the camera, so it's on hold right now. My friend Mike moved to California and I went on the road trip cross country with him. We drove though Kansas, Colorado, Utah(HELLO!...nothing's here), Nevada, and then finally California. It took us four days, but it was fun. Now I'm back and I had a double at work the first day.
Work isn't going so well, business is really slow lately, and when it isn't slow I'm running my ass off around a dim hot restaurant. When there are two tables in the entire place the manager gets pissed that you're standing around...right.
Home life is fine. I'm pretty well adjusted to living at Dad's place. Peggy still gets on my nerves, but I avoid her pretty well these days and try my best to be pleasant when i do see her. It's her house too, and foremost probably.
Personal/dating life is pretty non-existent at the moment. I went on one date a while ago that went nowhere and was awkward. Honestly I think I realize how I'm not ready for another relationship. I find myself looking for women out of habit as opposed to really wanting it. If i got a date I don't know what I would do. I need to build a new foundation of life before I start putting other people on top of it, ya know?
I've talked to Lisa a couple of times and she's doing well. Part of me is very happy that she's doing well and moving on in her way, and another part of me hurts because she is moving on, in her way. Even when you know it's the right thing, when someone moves on from you it hurts.
So here I am, doing a job that won't go anywhere, living with a parent, and a few friends are moved/ing away. Where do I go from here?
This, friends, looks to me like a huge crossroads. One of those roads like when you look down any of the paths you still have no idea where you are. You know the one I'm talking about. Like at the end of Cast Away. It's that cliche' too.
I suppose you could say not a lot has happened. This, however, isn't entirely true. Life is happening, which is a series of non eventful events, including going to work and coming home and occasionally seeing the guys. Someone told me, it's like a forever Summer, except with bills and responsibility. Not as fun, you might think.
A few extraordinary things have happened though, don't get me wrong. My cousin got married and seems very happy about this. I filmed a video for it, but my computer is recognizing the camera, so it's on hold right now. My friend Mike moved to California and I went on the road trip cross country with him. We drove though Kansas, Colorado, Utah(HELLO!...nothing's here), Nevada, and then finally California. It took us four days, but it was fun. Now I'm back and I had a double at work the first day.
Work isn't going so well, business is really slow lately, and when it isn't slow I'm running my ass off around a dim hot restaurant. When there are two tables in the entire place the manager gets pissed that you're standing around...right.
Home life is fine. I'm pretty well adjusted to living at Dad's place. Peggy still gets on my nerves, but I avoid her pretty well these days and try my best to be pleasant when i do see her. It's her house too, and foremost probably.
Personal/dating life is pretty non-existent at the moment. I went on one date a while ago that went nowhere and was awkward. Honestly I think I realize how I'm not ready for another relationship. I find myself looking for women out of habit as opposed to really wanting it. If i got a date I don't know what I would do. I need to build a new foundation of life before I start putting other people on top of it, ya know?
I've talked to Lisa a couple of times and she's doing well. Part of me is very happy that she's doing well and moving on in her way, and another part of me hurts because she is moving on, in her way. Even when you know it's the right thing, when someone moves on from you it hurts.
So here I am, doing a job that won't go anywhere, living with a parent, and a few friends are moved/ing away. Where do I go from here?
This, friends, looks to me like a huge crossroads. One of those roads like when you look down any of the paths you still have no idea where you are. You know the one I'm talking about. Like at the end of Cast Away. It's that cliche' too.