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hmm first livejournal entry for ages. now im back online i thought i might start writing again.
important exams are looming again. it seems odd to have them again, its almost like GCSEs never ended. im not revising so much for these ones though, im not sure why. I havent real;ly recovered from the last lot yet and perhaps gorseinon is just too easygoing. Perhaps mr sheehan was right, we dont perform as well in a free environment.... well if he is im still not going to beg him to go back. theres more to life then good grades. well i think there is. Im never quite sure anymore really, after all that is the ultimate goal.
So what is more important, me having fun, getting to know people, or working. Im tempted to say working, since it has always been what ive been most focused on. Lately i have been feeling rather guilty that i have so much free time and im not using it to work. If i fail any of these exams then i will know if im right or not, but right now i just wish for the holidays, and the end to all the work. its depressing to think that this is after all life, and it is mostly work. and in real life, there are no long holidays, just one solid block of endless work.
For some reason i seem to be making myself more depressed. I fear im over analysing things again. sometimes life is just better when you live it.
important exams are looming again. it seems odd to have them again, its almost like GCSEs never ended. im not revising so much for these ones though, im not sure why. I havent real;ly recovered from the last lot yet and perhaps gorseinon is just too easygoing. Perhaps mr sheehan was right, we dont perform as well in a free environment.... well if he is im still not going to beg him to go back. theres more to life then good grades. well i think there is. Im never quite sure anymore really, after all that is the ultimate goal.
So what is more important, me having fun, getting to know people, or working. Im tempted to say working, since it has always been what ive been most focused on. Lately i have been feeling rather guilty that i have so much free time and im not using it to work. If i fail any of these exams then i will know if im right or not, but right now i just wish for the holidays, and the end to all the work. its depressing to think that this is after all life, and it is mostly work. and in real life, there are no long holidays, just one solid block of endless work.
For some reason i seem to be making myself more depressed. I fear im over analysing things again. sometimes life is just better when you live it.