Listening to Radiohead. Yes. It's that kind of day ( Read more... )

"I might just love you right now, or it could be that you smell like coffee, and I REALLY like coffee, so I may just have this association with you, sex, smell, love, and coffee, and the wires in my head just rearrange those things in any damn order they please." -Me to the boyfriend.

It's difficult to lose someone you care about, (I would use the word 'love',  were I sure it still applied. 'Care about' seems safe enough), to mental illness.

That person is never really the same - either that or it's my perception of him. After the drama that happens between the initial break and the road to recovery, can anyone ever really be ( Read more... )

Food is making me ill. The very thought of putting something in my mouth, chewing, swallowing, makes my stomach twitch unhappily.

Why?

Stress, apparently.

Eating when my nerves are frayed upsets my stomach. So I do everything I can think to do to: search for jobs, apartments, calculate my projected finances, make grocery lists, re-budget my ( Read more... )

Around nine this morning, I was dragged, head-first, down my flight of stairs by my schizo-affective ex-boyfriend. I had made the decision at the top of the stairs, when it had become apparent what was about to happen, that I would not let go, nor shield myself for fear of losing my grip. As it was, I had clutched myself so tightly around his leg ( Read more... )

...because that's about how i FEEL right now. My boyfriend, (the dick), is at the hospital because his jaw is all swollen cause he got himself into a fight. (Ass.) I fed him soup, (that I made just for him, (because he can't eat anything else, fucking moron)), and then sent him back to the ER to wait for a goddamn doctor. (Bastard ( Read more... )

I filed my Federal & State taxes! Whew. Well at least that's done. I still need to do laundry. And go to the store. Aaaand clean house. Once again, I have completely forgotten to eat today. Don't look at me like that. At least I'm remembering my meds.

Random question for the F'list: What do you plan on spending your income tax return on?
Me? Oh you ( Read more... )

Am officially couch surfing. I could tell you how it all went down with my folks, but really, that's not what's important.

The important thing is that I'm alive and healthy and looking for a place of my own. In the meantime I'm staying with friends, saving up money, and piecing together a plan for my life. I have my cat and my turtle and the ( Read more... )

I have just finished converting all of Dead & Damned into PDFs - which I will later print out and then attack with a red pen. I'm already starting to get the bunnies munching on some new - and muchly needed - fodder for the continuation of this story. Thank ye gods. I admit that everything after XII died in the water - and even bits of XII will be ( Read more... )

Fedral and State Taxes, guys - they are done. HUZZAH! I sat down today and did them ( Read more... )