Day three
well as an update. day two was a little more tollerable, I think due to the physical encounter the wife and i had that morning. That evening was a little less anxious. yet alot more confusing. Day two ,.,<. I am not an accident . God intended for me to be here. and have a purpose.
The weekend went well Friday night Sarurday and Sunday all went well. As far as the wife and I being together. We stayed together at the house alone. The boys went to their fathers. Layne , our oldest went to my brothers. My daughter was at her mothers this weekend. Confused yet>????? Extended families can tend to get this way. Well she and I had a sexually satisfying weekend. dealt with a few issues and didnt get all worked up. We even went and found a church together.
Day Three..... the discussion of the book was learning what wrong attitudes people can have that mess up their lives. the wrong purposes in life. to let fear or guilt or self be the purpose. We have all fallen to these traps before. The discussion went well ,,,Then afterwards she and I have an argument over something that should not have been an issue. Merely a point of view that I should or should not have given. I dont understand Lord. Where did I go wrong??? I wasnt trying to hurt her feelings or make her feel inferior. I was just merely trying to interject a point that maybe she hadnt seen. or cared to see. So I go to bed upset and confused again. Is this all worth the pain. Is this relationship worth the confusion. Am I going to be accepted for any of my original being other than my humor and sex appeal>???? Am I??? I asked you a question. Yet you say nothing;. Well Lord I will keep asking you this question until you answer me. Will my wife accept me for me or do I have to become some other me. Will me ever be enough for any one>>>>?????? Please ..... I need quidance.... In Jesus name I pray .... Amen.
The weekend went well Friday night Sarurday and Sunday all went well. As far as the wife and I being together. We stayed together at the house alone. The boys went to their fathers. Layne , our oldest went to my brothers. My daughter was at her mothers this weekend. Confused yet>????? Extended families can tend to get this way. Well she and I had a sexually satisfying weekend. dealt with a few issues and didnt get all worked up. We even went and found a church together.
Day Three..... the discussion of the book was learning what wrong attitudes people can have that mess up their lives. the wrong purposes in life. to let fear or guilt or self be the purpose. We have all fallen to these traps before. The discussion went well ,,,Then afterwards she and I have an argument over something that should not have been an issue. Merely a point of view that I should or should not have given. I dont understand Lord. Where did I go wrong??? I wasnt trying to hurt her feelings or make her feel inferior. I was just merely trying to interject a point that maybe she hadnt seen. or cared to see. So I go to bed upset and confused again. Is this all worth the pain. Is this relationship worth the confusion. Am I going to be accepted for any of my original being other than my humor and sex appeal>???? Am I??? I asked you a question. Yet you say nothing;. Well Lord I will keep asking you this question until you answer me. Will my wife accept me for me or do I have to become some other me. Will me ever be enough for any one>>>>?????? Please ..... I need quidance.... In Jesus name I pray .... Amen.