i made ice cream in chemistry today!
life is so fucked up, man. but ive been so completly out of it, that i cant even feel anymore. It just seems like life is just a big board game. like were all just lab rats chasing the cheese, which we call happiness. thats what mostly everyone wants, right? thats what were all running after: happiness.
I cant even cry. when shit went down yesterday and today, i didnt start to cry, i just got really angry. it didnt hit me correctly.
then theres smoking, which im pretty sure is whats keeping me out of everything. ive been constantly high for the past 2 days. i wake up, smoke, then continnusly smoke alllll day. and its not like i only smoke 1 or 2 bowls at a time, its like.. i have to get as high as i possibly can, and as far away from everything that i possibly can.
i dont know, i just think its fucked up...
the weird thing, is that im happy.