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My life and my self are both very complex. Complex to the point that I don't believe a simple paragraph can do much justice illustrating who I am. I also have accepted the fact that no matter what I say about myself, my words with be stolen and/or skewed and most likely misperceived. That is our human nature, something we choose not to change. So please, continue to steal my words, my thoughts, my feelings, and my personality, pretending it is your own because I can't stop you even if I wanted. I've realized that and have come to the conclusion that this world is an ugly place, the majority of people in general are ignorant, selfish, and rather unintelligent. I won't get into specifics because I could write too many thoughts on the subject and you'd be here for days reading this. Instead, I'll stop myself and try to open your eyes to the fact that as soon as you realized that this is an ugly world, but you still recognize the beauty in it, you become a better person.
As for me, I am Rebecca and I am a countless number of various things. I am a mess of emotions. I am thoughts written down on paper; a voice that bleeds the truth. I am a 19 year old woman who doesn't really know what she wants in life. Although I may know the majority of things I want out of life, I'm still just as lost and confused as everyone else. Confusion or not, music is the one thing that has always made sense to me. I cannot express in words how music, as a whole, has had an affect on my life. It has always been very meaningful to me even before I could understand why it was so and has been the most solid thing in my life apart from my family and a few select close friends. The feelings I get from the resonance of a piano, or the tone of a guitar, is inexpressible. When tones harmonize or create dissonance, I enter a different reality where there's nothing but sound and I almost always am in a state of deep relaxation.
Although I am a playful and caring person, having been called a dork by practically every person I know, I am a very honest and blunt person. I don't hesitate to let people know what's on my mind because I know I'm rather intelligent and happen to use my brain on a regular basis; unlike most people. I'm not trying to appear conceited but to put it bluntly, I know my shit and know how to back up my opinions. My opinions are very strong, with good reason, mind you. You may test me if you'd like. It won't be the first time someone has been curious as to the power of my debating skills.
Haha, I just laughed at myself for typing that. Anyway, moving on.. Yes, I am single for the time being, but this may change in the near future as I've met someone who seems to fit the mold of what I've been searching for. Just the thought of him makes me smile. I'm starting to blush as I type this, so I think I'll just shut up about that for now. But, please do keep that in mind when you feel the need to try to hit on me. I won't respond in a positive fashion if you do so.
Although I may seem set in my ways, we are all constantly changing. My perception of life is much different than yours, I'm sure of that. I've taken into consideration that everyone has different upbringings, experiences, perceptions, feelings, etc. but have realized that everything in my life has made me a good person; more so than most. I accept people for who they are and don't partake in bashing others for the mere being of their appearance, opinions, religions, social status, gender, race, etc. We are all human. We are all stuck on this planet, which we so happen to be fucking up at the moment and have been for past generations. Yet another thing I won't get into or I'd be writing about it for hours.
Okay, I'm tired of writing about myself. Thank you for reading, if you actually did read it instead of skipping to the last paragraph and quoting something from it to me, as if you read the whole thing when you in fact did not. I apologize if I come off as a bitch, cunt, self-centered know-it-all, etc. because I really am a very nice, accepting person. But, if you feel compelled to talk shit to me, please note that I don't take offense to things that aren't true. I also believe that wasting one's time, energy to type, and/or breath to speak ill of another is unhealthy, completely unnecessary, and generally comes from people who are unsatisfied with their own life. Just remember that nothing in life can make you happy but yourself. You have the ability to make yourself content with the way you perceive and react to your surroundings. Please do so.
As for me, I am Rebecca and I am a countless number of various things. I am a mess of emotions. I am thoughts written down on paper; a voice that bleeds the truth. I am a 19 year old woman who doesn't really know what she wants in life. Although I may know the majority of things I want out of life, I'm still just as lost and confused as everyone else. Confusion or not, music is the one thing that has always made sense to me. I cannot express in words how music, as a whole, has had an affect on my life. It has always been very meaningful to me even before I could understand why it was so and has been the most solid thing in my life apart from my family and a few select close friends. The feelings I get from the resonance of a piano, or the tone of a guitar, is inexpressible. When tones harmonize or create dissonance, I enter a different reality where there's nothing but sound and I almost always am in a state of deep relaxation.
Although I am a playful and caring person, having been called a dork by practically every person I know, I am a very honest and blunt person. I don't hesitate to let people know what's on my mind because I know I'm rather intelligent and happen to use my brain on a regular basis; unlike most people. I'm not trying to appear conceited but to put it bluntly, I know my shit and know how to back up my opinions. My opinions are very strong, with good reason, mind you. You may test me if you'd like. It won't be the first time someone has been curious as to the power of my debating skills.
Haha, I just laughed at myself for typing that. Anyway, moving on.. Yes, I am single for the time being, but this may change in the near future as I've met someone who seems to fit the mold of what I've been searching for. Just the thought of him makes me smile. I'm starting to blush as I type this, so I think I'll just shut up about that for now. But, please do keep that in mind when you feel the need to try to hit on me. I won't respond in a positive fashion if you do so.
Although I may seem set in my ways, we are all constantly changing. My perception of life is much different than yours, I'm sure of that. I've taken into consideration that everyone has different upbringings, experiences, perceptions, feelings, etc. but have realized that everything in my life has made me a good person; more so than most. I accept people for who they are and don't partake in bashing others for the mere being of their appearance, opinions, religions, social status, gender, race, etc. We are all human. We are all stuck on this planet, which we so happen to be fucking up at the moment and have been for past generations. Yet another thing I won't get into or I'd be writing about it for hours.
Okay, I'm tired of writing about myself. Thank you for reading, if you actually did read it instead of skipping to the last paragraph and quoting something from it to me, as if you read the whole thing when you in fact did not. I apologize if I come off as a bitch, cunt, self-centered know-it-all, etc. because I really am a very nice, accepting person. But, if you feel compelled to talk shit to me, please note that I don't take offense to things that aren't true. I also believe that wasting one's time, energy to type, and/or breath to speak ill of another is unhealthy, completely unnecessary, and generally comes from people who are unsatisfied with their own life. Just remember that nothing in life can make you happy but yourself. You have the ability to make yourself content with the way you perceive and react to your surroundings. Please do so.