cycle
cycle
i always feel like i am being used.
i don't know why, but it is getting worse lately. i feel like i am being used to get someone else or to get somewhere just so someone can be with someone else. vague, believe me i know. no one holds on to me like i'm worth their time. i haven't been able to invest emotion in anyone else either. i don't get upset anymore. it's like i'm just floating through life and nothing really matters, not even myself.
i have lost love and i have lost friends. i have lost the only person that actually means anything to me, and my bestfriends are on the verge of abandoning me as well.
all of this makes me want to just pack up my truck and drive somewhere far away to a place where no one knows where i'm from or where i've been. i want a new face; a new name, a new life, there isn't really anything for me here. i can't even walk down the sidewalk without being afraid.
i never feel like it is about me anymore, or i really have never felt like it is all about me. as confident as i am & as much fun i have whenever you see me staring off into space or you ask me what is wrong i am probably thinking "why am i even here?"
[i actually ask myself that quite often...]
i want to go back to a time when i truly know the person beside me is there for my company & my company only. i want to be in a time where nothing else matters but our friendship & our happiness. i never want to be bored with them or vice versus. i want to travel to interesting places & make a memory.
anyone want to go there with me?
123 go team.
i always feel like i am being used.
i don't know why, but it is getting worse lately. i feel like i am being used to get someone else or to get somewhere just so someone can be with someone else. vague, believe me i know. no one holds on to me like i'm worth their time. i haven't been able to invest emotion in anyone else either. i don't get upset anymore. it's like i'm just floating through life and nothing really matters, not even myself.
i have lost love and i have lost friends. i have lost the only person that actually means anything to me, and my bestfriends are on the verge of abandoning me as well.
all of this makes me want to just pack up my truck and drive somewhere far away to a place where no one knows where i'm from or where i've been. i want a new face; a new name, a new life, there isn't really anything for me here. i can't even walk down the sidewalk without being afraid.
i never feel like it is about me anymore, or i really have never felt like it is all about me. as confident as i am & as much fun i have whenever you see me staring off into space or you ask me what is wrong i am probably thinking "why am i even here?"
[i actually ask myself that quite often...]
i want to go back to a time when i truly know the person beside me is there for my company & my company only. i want to be in a time where nothing else matters but our friendship & our happiness. i never want to be bored with them or vice versus. i want to travel to interesting places & make a memory.
anyone want to go there with me?
123 go team.