Sleepless.
I can't sleep wandering if your decisions were intentional. I convinced myself that you needed to sleep early, hence you turned off your phone, but when i last tried, I managed to call through, but it was already too late, I didn't want to wake you. Am I really not worth it anymore? Everytime I try to be initiative, knowing the costs of the efforts doesn't come cheap, I hit another wall, telling me why bother again and again, she's not worth it. I pick myself up, giving myself strength, again and again, reminding myself, that this friendship is worth the effort, but the message I get doesn't seem the same. I never got the chance. I never did. Will I ever do?
I'm so very tired.. I wonder how long can I last...