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Wow. I just received a hand addressed envelope in the mail here at my work. Inside was a newspaper clipping for Lane Bryant's grand opening. WTF? Whoever did this truly, has fabulous timing. I have pretty good self-esteem, but I have been filled with hate for my body lately. I want this extra weight to be gone. I want to feel like I am attractive. I am tempted to resort to old, unhealthy habits. Just toy with the darkside a bit, so that I can jumpstart things. But I know that is not how it will go.
I know some of this body hate has little to do with my body. It's that life has taken an extremely stressful turn recently. I need to control something. I need to feel good about something.
Truthfully, I could stand to lose about 10-15 pounds and I would love to firm up. I have started running/walking 4 days a week. I'd join a gym, but I might be moving away from Texas soon. I want to buy a bike, but I don't want to have to haul it across country, so I think I will wait until I know what direction my life will take.
Ugh....I cannot think about this anymore.
I know some of this body hate has little to do with my body. It's that life has taken an extremely stressful turn recently. I need to control something. I need to feel good about something.
Truthfully, I could stand to lose about 10-15 pounds and I would love to firm up. I have started running/walking 4 days a week. I'd join a gym, but I might be moving away from Texas soon. I want to buy a bike, but I don't want to have to haul it across country, so I think I will wait until I know what direction my life will take.
Ugh....I cannot think about this anymore.