old friends
yesterday i saw 2 friends i hadnt seen in over a year. Matt and Daniel. They just got back from Iraq a couple of weeks ago. Im so proud of them mostly because of their attitude, I would say because of what they did but I think ones attitude is a better indicator especially in the military. They didnt complain and thats easy to do ANY time someone has to make a sacrifice. Much less for more than a year of someones life. A reoccuring problem I have with visiting people I havent seen lately is knowing that they dont really know me too well. And I know thats vice versa as well. But when they knew me I was a man of this world seeking what goods this world has to offer but now I seek the Father and have become a man of God. My family knows me very well obviously but at the same time now they arent updated. I believe until they fully know the Father they cant fully know me and what I live for. A lot of my actions and tendencies were soley based on selfishness, but now my savior gave me a heart that loves, the complete opposite. Thats also how I felt when I saw tracie and amanda. I guess Amanda more so because I just dont talk to her as much. She seemed more comfortable then she did in high school, which was pleasently expected. Tracie seems to have gone the other way. I confronted her and I dont think she wanted to let me in. Thats ok though, its hard letting people in