back in Auburn
this may be long. This weekend was a good weekend. First off, i cant help but praise God for "injecting" friends into my life so fast. A recent friend of mine from Young Life let me go to Jacksonville with her this weekend. With the help of 12 hours total in a car, time spent together over a weekend and the common bind of christians; i consider shelby a good friend. This is neat in a world with few legit friends. If I had to describe this weekend, Id use the word harmonious. I met a LOT of students from gainsville. They were happy, happy together, happy to meet me and we enjoyed the nights and afternoons together. Going out was fun, the majority of the public was pretty hammered but as long as I dont see anger or hate it doesnt really get to me at all. However both nights I completely zoned out and watched how every individual walked and talked different. I mean I literally watched thousands people. Everyone had there own vibe as well.ea They were created this way and I was in AWE of such a small portion of Gods creativity. Then I became overwhelmed with sadness of "emptiness" that these ppl were revolving there lives around. I could see the sins of the city. I saw massive displays of pride, empty sexuality, no compassion, and the worst I saw ignorance. I saw ppl not paying attention to a thing! Before I gave my life to Christ I didnt care enough to put serious thought into total strangers. But now I know the world for what darkness it really is and it tears my heart and I cant help but look at it. To put that to rest I cant stop listening to this song by Derek Webb called Wedding Dress. Hes talking to the church and anyone who calls themselves a christian. He says "we are a prodigal with no way home and we put Him on like a ring of gold" That scares me. I see whole bodies of churches "comfortable" in Christ and in their lives. I dont see how, i just dont see it. I mean I understand the joy and the smile, for there is a beauty and weight in the universe that I can not describe. But I dont understand the comfort. THis wolrd is an abomination, it is a realm of evil. But if we are not of it then how can we be comfortable in it? How can we take comforts in money, recognition, pleasures that exist HERE!? But even christians can be decieved. My prayer is for those seeds. THose seeds that come from the sowers. Let them sow good seeds, which can only be done in the purest of hearts. alleluiah to the ONE who makes all possible!