sigh
i dont know what to do with myself sometimes. Today I couldnt work up the nerve to go to work or school. I just dont care too. One class was cancelled I will admit. I act and do on what I want. This is a time where it back fires. I enjoy class. Always when I go to class I enjoy it. I enjoy work almost always. Yet I skip out on class more often than not. Ive been praying for God to put the desires on my heart that are righteous. And more and more I care less and less about the situation the world has handed me. I dont think Im lazy. I love helping ppl, i love working hard for ppl, I love to sweat. So its not laziness. And tonight is thursday night which means encounter. I dont know if I want to go anymore. It has wonderful messages, wonderful music and at times an atmosphere that is worthy. But its turned into a social event for so many i think. I hate that. And I dont want to be a part of that. Im having a great semester thus far, but i cant wait til its over.