last night my teeth fell out like ivory...

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im currently watching the "war all the time" music video. o dear lord im orgasming over this like whoaa. but i mean its thursday.. i have every right to orgasm and such over them. im so pissed that im not gonna be here to see them perform when they come to worcester in 2 weeks or so. not fucking fair. :( o well. i guess mexico will just have to entertain me. gr. yea went to kahlie's for a lil last night. the rentals actually let me stay tehre for a while! this is a big thing for me cuz they've been unbelievably insane lately.just realli stressed about the trip i guess. f-it. so me n kahlie played with chloe.( the kitten) we had to sneek her in so michael wouldnt flip lol. "DAMN I NEED TO CHANGE MY CELL'S RING! IT SOUNDS LIKE A CAT MEOWING!" hahahah. but yea unfortunetly my lil dipshit welsh friend couldnt join in on the festivities last night cuz he's too cool. and im also his back up bitch. thanx danny.. love u 2 man. maybe hangin out with jaci tonight. not too sure. i have so much to do, and i dont wanna do it. and then tehres my lil boy toy who i dont wanna leave. but i gotta. im scared that when i come back hes gonna have another bitch on the side. cuz 20 days is a long time and thats some time that he wont wanna be single for. ugh.F-IT!. telling him shit wont make a difference. i cant force someone to have the same feeling towards me as i do for them. if i could do that...believe me i would. but i cant so i wont.i have high hopes that things will be different once i come back home. i need this time to get away from things and just i dunno mellow out i guess.gonna get piss drunk everyday while im in mexico.theres no drinking age so that equals unlimited amounts of alcohol in my system and in my room. :) do.not call me an alcoholic becuz u will all be crawlin back when u feel like havin a nice night with my boy jose cuervo.lol. heres a lil list of things i wish to have when i return

1.my boy toy
2.a tan
3.just be thin
4.lighter looking hair due to the sun
5.better attitude
6.more optimistic personality
7.happiness
8.sombrero
9.white tequila that can only be found out of the US
10. #'s or sn's of the fine boys i meet.
11.pics of the hott guys that i met lol

that is all my lil charrubs- me