Poem I Wrote Last Night
~*Untitled*~ By Lauren Elizabeth 10-24-04
When I Need Someone to ease my troubled mind your right there, you cant just up and leave that woundnt be fair, i never knew that the one i loved for so long could be the one i depended on for a shoulder to cry on or even a place to stay when i have nowhere to go. who could ever think that you, the person i was practiacly "in love" with for 5months could become my big brother in a day? this is all hazy to me i dont understand it but i like it. this feeling i have of acceptance. when you say yourlife is for shit n u want to commit suicide it makes me just want to curl up and die. when i see you depressed looking for help i want to be able to help you and it hurts like hell knowing i cant always be there. i want to thank you for always being here for me but yet i dont know how to.you say if i die you will to. no kid, sorry but you cant. im not worth it. i dont deserve anything.i dont deserve to even have you as a friend butim luck i do. i dont deserve anything but to die. you keep telling me you love me but alot of the time i feel just the opposite of that. i dont know what to do anymore. i guess the reason i wrote this was just to tell you i love you and i never want to lose you as a brother. always stay the way you are and even of somehting happened and we are seperated dont ever forget me!
( I think you all kno who this is about)
anyway lately ive been pretty down and out. idk why but oh well..life goes on. ive had lots of sucidal thoughts but i cant act upon them. thanks to paul, and i dont mean that in a bad way. friday ali spent the night atmy moms n we went n played james bond in the dollar store then saturday we went to the frog for batle of the bands. then sunday i went to pauls got my hair done then went home n stells came over n stayed the night. thats when i werote the poem up there. blah blah.....i need something to take this payne away!
Comment? on the poem...n be honest
When I Need Someone to ease my troubled mind your right there, you cant just up and leave that woundnt be fair, i never knew that the one i loved for so long could be the one i depended on for a shoulder to cry on or even a place to stay when i have nowhere to go. who could ever think that you, the person i was practiacly "in love" with for 5months could become my big brother in a day? this is all hazy to me i dont understand it but i like it. this feeling i have of acceptance. when you say yourlife is for shit n u want to commit suicide it makes me just want to curl up and die. when i see you depressed looking for help i want to be able to help you and it hurts like hell knowing i cant always be there. i want to thank you for always being here for me but yet i dont know how to.you say if i die you will to. no kid, sorry but you cant. im not worth it. i dont deserve anything.i dont deserve to even have you as a friend butim luck i do. i dont deserve anything but to die. you keep telling me you love me but alot of the time i feel just the opposite of that. i dont know what to do anymore. i guess the reason i wrote this was just to tell you i love you and i never want to lose you as a brother. always stay the way you are and even of somehting happened and we are seperated dont ever forget me!
( I think you all kno who this is about)
anyway lately ive been pretty down and out. idk why but oh well..life goes on. ive had lots of sucidal thoughts but i cant act upon them. thanks to paul, and i dont mean that in a bad way. friday ali spent the night atmy moms n we went n played james bond in the dollar store then saturday we went to the frog for batle of the bands. then sunday i went to pauls got my hair done then went home n stells came over n stayed the night. thats when i werote the poem up there. blah blah.....i need something to take this payne away!
Comment? on the poem...n be honest