will we make it somehow
I am too weak I cry over the slightest things ):
all I knew was to cry when the photo crisis happened, while cheryl was the calm one to search for website tips about photo recovery. thanks cheryl for being there when I was in a frenzy ytd, sorry for crying like that to you over such a small thing omggg I think I'll just come crying to you in london all the time! :/
and xian (: thanks for being there toooooooo, lubdub like yen's favourite heartbeat <3 goshh how am I to survive without this peopleee. I need that skype call plan totally.
it has been a super hectic weekend, I havent been sleeping for more than 5 hours since thursday I think. it was non stop meeting of people I really love back to back omgg madness. by sunday morning my eyes really couldnt open anymore.
saturday: I HEART MY THREADFRIENDS CAN I PACK THEM IN MY LUGGAGE AND BRING THEM TO LONDON WITH ME ): had a class gathering too, like the real full class gathering ahah in school!! wow they finally transformed the space above hodge lodge into a useful eating/mugging place!! attendance as great, like 18-20 out of 26? awesome bunch of people who are all headed towards awesome lives goals and dreams (: such a motivated class hahaha Im the only one dozing off every lecture/tutorial.
sunday: breakfast with the cousins at botanical gardens. though the boys were obviously so tireddddd, they still woke up and came for the breakfast. which was really <33333 saw some angmohs whom we supposed were guests to a wedding. OMG THEY ALL LOOK SUPER RICH GOODLOOKING GORGEOUS AND CELEB-LIKE! if not for the fact that we were leaving and I wanna get home quick to nap awhile, I would have gone to check out whos wedding it is. the guests seriously looked DAMN GOOD.
ivan ellie visit later, which was super heart wrenching cos I cant ignore the fact that its my last weekend with them? ): and after taking pictures with them I started breaking down and crying like some cow. thought ellie would be freaked out by me crying, but instead she just stared and looked at me with like wide open eyes, going "YI YI CRYING!" in a super cheeky tone. hahaha naughty girllllll, it was sooo fucking bittersweet. I wanna hug her small body, hold her cute apple face in my palms ):
ah yi invited us over for a goood dinner at her just-finished-renovating house. she totally rushed the move in so that we could have our dinner there for the sunday so that I could see their house before I left. the food spread was amazing its like all chinese zi char food zero western food xD and my cousins uncles and aunties just kept giving me angbaos, teabags, snacks etc giving me their best wishes, advice, tips on safety, I prolly have never felt that much love from this side of the family before >< idk, I suddenly felt cherished now that Im leaving and Im suddenly cherishing all that I have SO MUCH ):
all my meetups begin so heartwarmingly and end so heartwrenchingly. the byebyes are so hard to say. and heres to a week more of such meetups before its goodbye for good.
sometime I think to myself, if I wasnt leaving then I wouldnt have to go through so much pain and heartache. but then again, if I wasnt leaving, then all this wouldnt have happened and I really wouldnt have learnt to cherish whatever awesome people and love I have around. humans are always always like that. you need sad to contrast happy, you need loss to enhance gain.
am still recovering from the recent emotional drama, it was without conclusion as usual. each time it happens it feels like its the end of the world, and each time we resolve it I feel we are stronger, then why do we still go through the same damn cycle over and over again ):
omg I gotta sleeep! my posts have been so rant-ish.
all I knew was to cry when the photo crisis happened, while cheryl was the calm one to search for website tips about photo recovery. thanks cheryl for being there when I was in a frenzy ytd, sorry for crying like that to you over such a small thing omggg I think I'll just come crying to you in london all the time! :/
and xian (: thanks for being there toooooooo, lubdub like yen's favourite heartbeat <3 goshh how am I to survive without this peopleee. I need that skype call plan totally.
it has been a super hectic weekend, I havent been sleeping for more than 5 hours since thursday I think. it was non stop meeting of people I really love back to back omgg madness. by sunday morning my eyes really couldnt open anymore.
saturday: I HEART MY THREADFRIENDS CAN I PACK THEM IN MY LUGGAGE AND BRING THEM TO LONDON WITH ME ): had a class gathering too, like the real full class gathering ahah in school!! wow they finally transformed the space above hodge lodge into a useful eating/mugging place!! attendance as great, like 18-20 out of 26? awesome bunch of people who are all headed towards awesome lives goals and dreams (: such a motivated class hahaha Im the only one dozing off every lecture/tutorial.
sunday: breakfast with the cousins at botanical gardens. though the boys were obviously so tireddddd, they still woke up and came for the breakfast. which was really <33333 saw some angmohs whom we supposed were guests to a wedding. OMG THEY ALL LOOK SUPER RICH GOODLOOKING GORGEOUS AND CELEB-LIKE! if not for the fact that we were leaving and I wanna get home quick to nap awhile, I would have gone to check out whos wedding it is. the guests seriously looked DAMN GOOD.
ivan ellie visit later, which was super heart wrenching cos I cant ignore the fact that its my last weekend with them? ): and after taking pictures with them I started breaking down and crying like some cow. thought ellie would be freaked out by me crying, but instead she just stared and looked at me with like wide open eyes, going "YI YI CRYING!" in a super cheeky tone. hahaha naughty girllllll, it was sooo fucking bittersweet. I wanna hug her small body, hold her cute apple face in my palms ):
ah yi invited us over for a goood dinner at her just-finished-renovating house. she totally rushed the move in so that we could have our dinner there for the sunday so that I could see their house before I left. the food spread was amazing its like all chinese zi char food zero western food xD and my cousins uncles and aunties just kept giving me angbaos, teabags, snacks etc giving me their best wishes, advice, tips on safety, I prolly have never felt that much love from this side of the family before >< idk, I suddenly felt cherished now that Im leaving and Im suddenly cherishing all that I have SO MUCH ):
all my meetups begin so heartwarmingly and end so heartwrenchingly. the byebyes are so hard to say. and heres to a week more of such meetups before its goodbye for good.
sometime I think to myself, if I wasnt leaving then I wouldnt have to go through so much pain and heartache. but then again, if I wasnt leaving, then all this wouldnt have happened and I really wouldnt have learnt to cherish whatever awesome people and love I have around. humans are always always like that. you need sad to contrast happy, you need loss to enhance gain.
am still recovering from the recent emotional drama, it was without conclusion as usual. each time it happens it feels like its the end of the world, and each time we resolve it I feel we are stronger, then why do we still go through the same damn cycle over and over again ):
omg I gotta sleeep! my posts have been so rant-ish.