Why am I taking this so damn hard?
I've lost a lot of people I cared about this year. It hasn't been easy losing any of them. But I'm just so completely fucked up over John. I dunno, maybe it was because I saw him all the time at work. Maybe it's because he was just so fiery, so full of piss and vinegar, I didn't believe he COULD die. Or maybe it's because we're both cranky artistic Southwesterners, and we could keep up with each other in the cussin' and drinkin' departments. Who knows.
His viewing is tomorrow. I'm not going to that. I'm not the least bit creeped out by dead people. I just think they're sad. I don't want to see John when there's nobody home behind his eyes. Dead people make me think of houses with the windows boarded up. I know it's important to some people to see their loved ones, for closure. That's cool. I'm just not one of them. I am going to his funeral on Saturday, though. I want to take a little gift to his wife Andrea, and his dogs Betty and Harry.
I had to work from home today cuz my mom has the flu, and I don't have anybody else to watch the kids. I think Fenris is slowly going mad from boredom. Washington Virtual Academy keeps putting off his actual schooling for retarded reasons. But I can go to work tomorrow--Daniel's agreed to take the Work From Home bullet this time.
Gonna go take a shower. My sinuses are all stuffed up.
His viewing is tomorrow. I'm not going to that. I'm not the least bit creeped out by dead people. I just think they're sad. I don't want to see John when there's nobody home behind his eyes. Dead people make me think of houses with the windows boarded up. I know it's important to some people to see their loved ones, for closure. That's cool. I'm just not one of them. I am going to his funeral on Saturday, though. I want to take a little gift to his wife Andrea, and his dogs Betty and Harry.
I had to work from home today cuz my mom has the flu, and I don't have anybody else to watch the kids. I think Fenris is slowly going mad from boredom. Washington Virtual Academy keeps putting off his actual schooling for retarded reasons. But I can go to work tomorrow--Daniel's agreed to take the Work From Home bullet this time.
Gonna go take a shower. My sinuses are all stuffed up.