Another Day
Today was one of the hardest days of my life. Not the worst day. Two of the worst days were 1-25-07 when Ozzie died and 3-4-2007 When Chris Dana died. Today was Chris's service and his burial. With military stuff...I dont want to go into details considering im doing my laundry in a public place and i refuse to cry again, i think i may be dry. When we went out to the burial i was crying so hard that i got other people going, and a complete stranger came up and hugged me cause she said i needed one, which was really nice of her. Joe and Heidi broke my heart...this is so hard on all of us, especially Joe and the Family. My heart goes out to them, i don't pray much, but if there ever was a time when i do, its now. This is so hard....Heidi and I each wrote a letter to Chris and set it on top of his casket, His uncle went to the driver and asked if he could put the letters inside with chris, which he did. Which i found extremly touching so that made me cry even harder. My hand was shaking so bad when i placed it on the casket next to joe and heidi's and i told chris that "i'd see him later" cause i couldnt say goodbye. just couldnt do it. cause i truly do feel as though i will see him later. I really wouldnt wish this on anyone...Military funerals are definatly hard...i hope Chris knows now how important he was to everybody. They had helicopters fly over for him...
The remembrance thing was hard too. Though, being a classic Helmerick that i am, i went to slide my purse under my pew and conked my head really hard on the one in front of me and said "Jesus!" pretty loud and sat up. Joe and Heidi busted a gut which was extremly needed but i refused to look at anyone else because i felt like such an ass! Then they had this video tribute and people would go up and tell stories, his dad tried but he ended up falling apart and couldnt do it. So therefor, i fell apart and joe and heidi did too. The three of us were crying through almost the whole thing pretty much. Then we went up and saw chris and that was pretty hard, it wasnt the Chris Dana i knew and loved, but a shell....i hope he's resting easier now and i hope that we're able to pick up the peices and move on with our lives with the healing power of time..
The remembrance thing was hard too. Though, being a classic Helmerick that i am, i went to slide my purse under my pew and conked my head really hard on the one in front of me and said "Jesus!" pretty loud and sat up. Joe and Heidi busted a gut which was extremly needed but i refused to look at anyone else because i felt like such an ass! Then they had this video tribute and people would go up and tell stories, his dad tried but he ended up falling apart and couldnt do it. So therefor, i fell apart and joe and heidi did too. The three of us were crying through almost the whole thing pretty much. Then we went up and saw chris and that was pretty hard, it wasnt the Chris Dana i knew and loved, but a shell....i hope he's resting easier now and i hope that we're able to pick up the peices and move on with our lives with the healing power of time..