i hate having to think up subjects...
Someone told me the other day that i'm fragile. That's kind of been fucking with me lately. I don't want to be. I don't want to take things so personally that aren't intentionally directed at me. But it's hard not to take things personally when people blow you off and don't return your phone calls and seem to give you the constant brush off. I don't know how to react to that, i never have. I just sit back, and do nothing, and let it drive me crazy until i forget about it. And by then, there's one less person in my life. It's a pattern, and it's fucked up, and i don't know how to break the cycle. Lately it seems that the people i want most in my life are the people that are the farthest away that they could be. and it sucks. i hate it, and there's nothing i can do about it but just deal with the way things are. I just wish things could be different.