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i'm sitting in the med library, deciding that i don't really mind college anymore, i actually kind of like it
i just need breaks so that i don't want to kill myself from doing homework all the time
but i also just realized that fuck i have changed
and to be honest, i don't think it's a good change
i laugh but it's not like i used to and i love but its not like i used to
i really feel like i lost a huge part of myself in the process of trying to make myself like it here
i stopped paying attention and became way too worried and serious
god damn i need to stop trying to plan my entire life out
i need to be freeeeee, like a bird
okay i'm starting over
i just need breaks so that i don't want to kill myself from doing homework all the time
but i also just realized that fuck i have changed
and to be honest, i don't think it's a good change
i laugh but it's not like i used to and i love but its not like i used to
i really feel like i lost a huge part of myself in the process of trying to make myself like it here
i stopped paying attention and became way too worried and serious
god damn i need to stop trying to plan my entire life out
i need to be freeeeee, like a bird
okay i'm starting over