nightmares...
this medication is not helping me out in the sleeping-well dept...
I had another nightmare last night, after it took me hours to finally fall asleep. I was being molested in my dream and he didnt do anything to stop it. He just stood there and laughed drunkenly with this look in his eye that just scared me. And then I tried to stop him from hurting himself and he went after me and tried to light me on fire...
Im so emotionally drained from thinking about it all. And being alone all the time does not help matters. I did go out with friends this weekend, but we ended up in awkward situations in which we just wanted to leave.
just wish i could sleeping soundly without thinking about him at all. but he just hurt me so much... i have to hate him, i just have to.
i really need to get away... i need something to distract me from all this and to make me happy.
sigh...
I had another nightmare last night, after it took me hours to finally fall asleep. I was being molested in my dream and he didnt do anything to stop it. He just stood there and laughed drunkenly with this look in his eye that just scared me. And then I tried to stop him from hurting himself and he went after me and tried to light me on fire...
Im so emotionally drained from thinking about it all. And being alone all the time does not help matters. I did go out with friends this weekend, but we ended up in awkward situations in which we just wanted to leave.
just wish i could sleeping soundly without thinking about him at all. but he just hurt me so much... i have to hate him, i just have to.
i really need to get away... i need something to distract me from all this and to make me happy.
sigh...