Dec 17, 2017 00:38
Last Saturday 9th December I woke in severe hypo but hadn't realised. The whole day was bad then became horrific. I had woken with bad head and neck pain and eye pain, vision problems. I put those down to the neck inflammation. Which it was. Only I did my blood and 6.5,seriously bad hypo for me. I ate, did not bloody want to! Then went back to bed as the neck and hypo had worn me out. Woke up at 5pm. 5.05pm my father started, wanted to do the plans for the catios. I repeatedly said that No. Then I had to repeatedly say that No, I was unwell. He refused to accept this. Kept going on. I was Forced to try do it. I didn't Understand it so he got mad. Bringing his confusion and confabulation into it, he was getting really mad at me because I would be forcing my mother to climb a 2ft step then get on her hands and knees to do this. No. We don't know WTF either for this but he was FURIOUS with me about this. I kept telling him what I had discussed with the builder but he would not have it. Three times I told him the same thing and he says I won't talk to him. My mother tried to get him to stop but he wouldn't. He never takes no for an answer. I was getting extremely frustrated and very upset and angry with him because he was not listening to me and refused to accept that no I wasn't well enough. He Then got up, said to me he was sorry and I thought fk, but no. Carried on. He was sorry That I Wouldn't talk to him. The pain in my head that had been there all day was now SCREAMING in my brain. I was crying from the pain and had to take Oramorph for the first time in months. And he did not give a fuck. None of that except for the 2ft thing was kidney failure. All of it was normal for him for decades!
confabulation,
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fathers kidney failure,
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