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so i miss jesse a lot. its been like 3 weeks or so since we broke up and over a month since ive seen him face to face. everywhere i go and everything i see, there is something that reminds me of him. debi was telling me about the neighbors dog jazzy, but she kept saying jesse accidentally. i tried to watch xxx today with vin diesel you know (not porn) and the opening scene is a ramstein song that he would watch all the time and was always around. i sleep in a bed everynight that we slept in together. i went on a date and it didnt work out very well at all. im not ready, i still want jesse. i know im sad and pathetic and i should be saying fuck him, he cheated, but i cant. we were so good together. everyone is telling me to move on, move on, but i cant help but think that this is the wrong decision. we are so good together. this sounds like the rantings of a desperate girl, but thats ok, this is how i feel.
on a lighter note, i got a job. i start on the 22nd and will be making decent money. dad says that he will give me a loan and is thinking about having me get my own place when i get my first paycheck. so around valentines i should have my own place. great, so i can sit at my new apt thinking about how sad i am. im just not ready to move on yet, and i dont think i will be by then either.
on a lighter note, i got a job. i start on the 22nd and will be making decent money. dad says that he will give me a loan and is thinking about having me get my own place when i get my first paycheck. so around valentines i should have my own place. great, so i can sit at my new apt thinking about how sad i am. im just not ready to move on yet, and i dont think i will be by then either.