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so its new years eve, and fireworks have started, and im sitting inside miserable. i believe stacy when she says stuff about his new gf, being a vet tech or something. i didnt know this till into the relationship, but he and i started dating like 3 weeks after him and his ex broke up. that seems like his limit. what an insult. i didnt know it when on our second date i almost met her, i can imagine how mad she was knowing about me, knowing she had already been replaced. how hurt she must have been at my very existance, and now that has come back on me. i didnt know, and im sure this new one doesnt know yet. im sure she'll feel the sting. my dad says that he thinks things out there in galveston will fall apart for him and he'll came back to me, and usually dad has some insight on stuff like that, but i dont know this time. i dont think that he'll miss me, i dont think that he'll realize that he lost something amazing. i also think he lied about me only being the 6th he's been with. we were together on like the second date for god's sake, and the way he goes through gfs. 4 a year for 12 years, me being 50th is more like it. i am just so upset. it was not supposed to be like this, i was not supposed to be here, alone. it all just sucks.