under pressure...
oh man, I just got off the phone with Heather and she asked me the most serious question ever. She was like "I want to ask you something...its really serious, and I want you to give it some serious thought..I've been thinking about this a lot...". Geeze the pressure.. but she just asked me to move in with her. I guess her and Brad were talking and they both agreed they moved to fast in their relationship and shouldnt have moved in together. And Brad might be taking this job in west chester....so that means he would be moving back there and Heather would be staying in Carlisle for a bit (she wants to stick it out at her job for a little while longer). And shes like "even if Brad doesnt go right now...I'd still be asking you to move in with me." And shes like "I wanted to sit you down and ask you this weekend but because we had such a 'college weekend' it never seemed to be the right time. I just love being around you all the time and I miss you and you've always made me feel safe, so I wouldn't ever be scared in this house". Like what the hell does someone say to that? So basically shes asking me to move 140 miles away, quit my job, and pray to find a new one around that area. Wow big freaking question. I'm still in shock from it....and when it comes down to it I don't think I'll be saying yes. I mean I'd love to live with that girl again, when we're together its like nothing else matters....but in carlisle??? Maybe if she was moving back to west chester...actually it would be a big yes if she moved back to west chester. But I don't think I could do carlisle....what a huge huge decision that would be. Now I feel under pressure...and I don't want to disappoint her :( But I just don't think I can do it....And it doesnt even sound like she wants to stay in carlisle forever...so I don't want to move out there, get a job, and 4 months later she wants to move somewhere else. Blah...I wonder what she'd do if I said no and Brad moves to west chester....there is no way in hell Heather would stay there by herself....if she then decides to move to west chester or somewhere around there, then I'm be like "sure". But I really don't think I could do the move to carlisle.....something just feels funny about it....and scary. Besides, I feel like I'm not quite done with something here yet....like I have "unfinished business"..whatever that is I don't know, but its something.