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Last night, it was a bad night. My mind wasn't on right, my spirit was broken, my life was (as it has been for the past year or so) in shambles. I go to bed thinking that it could be okay in the morning, I'll sleep it off and then things will be right.
I wake up much too early for an off day, I'm still a depressed wreck, and Facebook just so happens to show my ex-wife in the "People You May Know" tool on the sidebar of the page.
If that's not an omen that this holiday season will really suck ass, I don't know what is. Maybe Santa showing up and me killing him because I think it's a burglar could be the icing on the proverbial shit cake, but whatever. I'm working Christmas night and Boxing Day night-- which works since I really have no family or friends to celebrate the holiday with as it is; may as well earn some extra money in order to try to make myself feel some form of happiness again.
I don't know, it's gotten to the point where there are far too many down spots in my life and makes me want to just throw my hands up and give up. Just go through the motions until the day I die and fuck the whole ambition thing that I hoped would come day after day, month after month.
Oh well....we'll see what tomorrow brings, but I'm not expecting much.
I wake up much too early for an off day, I'm still a depressed wreck, and Facebook just so happens to show my ex-wife in the "People You May Know" tool on the sidebar of the page.
If that's not an omen that this holiday season will really suck ass, I don't know what is. Maybe Santa showing up and me killing him because I think it's a burglar could be the icing on the proverbial shit cake, but whatever. I'm working Christmas night and Boxing Day night-- which works since I really have no family or friends to celebrate the holiday with as it is; may as well earn some extra money in order to try to make myself feel some form of happiness again.
I don't know, it's gotten to the point where there are far too many down spots in my life and makes me want to just throw my hands up and give up. Just go through the motions until the day I die and fuck the whole ambition thing that I hoped would come day after day, month after month.
Oh well....we'll see what tomorrow brings, but I'm not expecting much.