i hate ben's mother with the fire of a thousand suns.
nevermind about ben. ben is not ready for physical intimacy. ben has felt sick all day.
this is not the kind of thing a girl likes to hear; that her sex partner from the previous evening has been feeling sick all day as a result of said sexual experience.
if i were a weaker lady, i would probably go kill myself right now, but no, i go on. i go on and on. on and on into deeper levels of self doubt and crushing insanity.
i wish i could just cut him off, but i can't. i think he was sent to me for a reason. he could be a punishment. he could be a test. he could just be the best present i ever got, but it's taking me some patience to unwrap him. i'm such a disgusting martyr. i think i'm freaking mother theresa or something, dont i? FUUUUCK.
a got ticked off when he told me today. i told him that we have to talk. i am a person too. i have limited patience and limited emotional stamina.
i am going to tell him he needs therapy. any guy that feels sick after a night with me is sick. this much i know.
this is not the kind of thing a girl likes to hear; that her sex partner from the previous evening has been feeling sick all day as a result of said sexual experience.
if i were a weaker lady, i would probably go kill myself right now, but no, i go on. i go on and on. on and on into deeper levels of self doubt and crushing insanity.
i wish i could just cut him off, but i can't. i think he was sent to me for a reason. he could be a punishment. he could be a test. he could just be the best present i ever got, but it's taking me some patience to unwrap him. i'm such a disgusting martyr. i think i'm freaking mother theresa or something, dont i? FUUUUCK.
a got ticked off when he told me today. i told him that we have to talk. i am a person too. i have limited patience and limited emotional stamina.
i am going to tell him he needs therapy. any guy that feels sick after a night with me is sick. this much i know.