And you know the light is fading all too soon
Mid-way through letting packing stress and my mom's everything get to me, I stopped. I had to stop because if I didn't stop I was going to freak out or snap or just do something generally unpleasant. And so, I stopped. I stopped and focused on DVD's I'd be bringing. No DVD's will fit in suitcases as I have cut severely back these next few months. I've packed Gilmore Girls Seasons 2 and 6, Buffy Season 2, Private Practice Season 2, One Tree Hill Season 3 and Veronica Mars Season 1. And yes, this bothers me because now I have the impulse to watch everything over and over again. But, I'm over it. I am over the holyshitican'thaveeverythingtherewithmerightaway impulse. Because, it's not smart price-wise to ship everything out at once and it is an impossibility. Surpassing this notion was what I needed. I'm going to be busy. I'm going to be really busy. I'll be a TA and I'll be taking classes and I will have a life so, that many DVD's, I will live with.
What's also hit is the realization that I am leaving. Completely. Tomorrow morning I get on a plane and I fly out to Los Angeles, California before driving out to Malibu and moving into a four person apartment and then a week from tomorrow, my mother and Bob will leave.
And I'll be in California. I will be there. And I did it.
It's jarring.
But, it's what I want and sometimes, I think it's what I need.
What's also hit is the realization that I am leaving. Completely. Tomorrow morning I get on a plane and I fly out to Los Angeles, California before driving out to Malibu and moving into a four person apartment and then a week from tomorrow, my mother and Bob will leave.
And I'll be in California. I will be there. And I did it.
It's jarring.
But, it's what I want and sometimes, I think it's what I need.