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today, a bird randomly shit on my shoulder. that pretty well sums up my life right now.
school is hard, but i enjoy it, so it's no so bad. i am at the library a lot. i find that i get the most work done there, but i also have come to enjoy my little hidden fortress of solitude down in the sub-basement, way back in the british law reference books. there's lots of air-con and nobody ever comes down there.
what do you do when there are no bad guys? there are just guys and bad outcomes? we've given ourselves until christmas to decide if this thing is working or not. for the first time ever, i am the one having the doubts. i do my best to blot it out during the day, but sometimes at night, i can't help but cry a little to myself. it's nobody's fault, really, i think he just never gave louisville a chance, and it's coming home to roost that it maybe just hates him right back. his only happy times during the day are at the apple store, away from me, from law school, just talking to strangers about how snazzy phones are.
if i sound defeated, maybe i am a little. i'm certainly tired. i'm tired of giving and not getting. i'm tired of not being heard or understood. mainly i'm just tired of watching the status quo play out for the next 30 years in my head. back when i was growing up, there was a song called "passionate kisses" by a lady named mary chapin-carpenter (actually, youtube just told me lucinda williams wrote it and MCC just covered it, albeit ably). i feel ya, girl. it's not like i'm asking for the world, i just want all of this and...shouldn't i?
meh, all this will probably blow over like it always does, but you know, justin cases, i have this to look back on and answer, "yes, i should have passionate kisses" somewhere in my life.
and someone who will go to law school date functions with me. :(
yes, it's my LJ and i'll write needy emo pleas for attention about my life. that's what LJ is for, as opposed to FB, where people actually will see it. this is kind of a mess and i'm probably going to delete it, but then again, probably not.
i'm just blurting out feelings because it just sucks to bottle it up. if anybody wasted their time reading this, i apologize, lol. i really do want to blog about things that i think are interesting in law school, because they are legion. i just had a day where i both found a four-leafed clover in my law book and got shit on by a bird once i was with kitho. you put the cosmic pieces together. trouble, trouble, trouble, indeed.
school is hard, but i enjoy it, so it's no so bad. i am at the library a lot. i find that i get the most work done there, but i also have come to enjoy my little hidden fortress of solitude down in the sub-basement, way back in the british law reference books. there's lots of air-con and nobody ever comes down there.
what do you do when there are no bad guys? there are just guys and bad outcomes? we've given ourselves until christmas to decide if this thing is working or not. for the first time ever, i am the one having the doubts. i do my best to blot it out during the day, but sometimes at night, i can't help but cry a little to myself. it's nobody's fault, really, i think he just never gave louisville a chance, and it's coming home to roost that it maybe just hates him right back. his only happy times during the day are at the apple store, away from me, from law school, just talking to strangers about how snazzy phones are.
if i sound defeated, maybe i am a little. i'm certainly tired. i'm tired of giving and not getting. i'm tired of not being heard or understood. mainly i'm just tired of watching the status quo play out for the next 30 years in my head. back when i was growing up, there was a song called "passionate kisses" by a lady named mary chapin-carpenter (actually, youtube just told me lucinda williams wrote it and MCC just covered it, albeit ably). i feel ya, girl. it's not like i'm asking for the world, i just want all of this and...shouldn't i?
meh, all this will probably blow over like it always does, but you know, justin cases, i have this to look back on and answer, "yes, i should have passionate kisses" somewhere in my life.
and someone who will go to law school date functions with me. :(
yes, it's my LJ and i'll write needy emo pleas for attention about my life. that's what LJ is for, as opposed to FB, where people actually will see it. this is kind of a mess and i'm probably going to delete it, but then again, probably not.
i'm just blurting out feelings because it just sucks to bottle it up. if anybody wasted their time reading this, i apologize, lol. i really do want to blog about things that i think are interesting in law school, because they are legion. i just had a day where i both found a four-leafed clover in my law book and got shit on by a bird once i was with kitho. you put the cosmic pieces together. trouble, trouble, trouble, indeed.