cycling
i cycle. not on a bike. i cycle in between the good and the bad and the unbearable. today is unbearable. i just sleep because it's easier than dealing with myself.
i'm always melodramtic. because i write the feels to me in the moment. i have the ability to look outside the moment, and realize that it's not that bad and that things will be better and that i'm just being wierd. but none of that affects the way i feel.
i feel so lonely sometimes. when my icq is dead and it's 1:35 am and even if i had some friends, they'd all be in bed.
and i need to be more constructive. reading or crafting would make me feel better i think - but i don't have that kind of energy. i resist what would make me feel better. yea, i'm so bright.
so i wait for the cloud to the lift. and i know it will. just give me some time and some room to breathe.
i'm always melodramtic. because i write the feels to me in the moment. i have the ability to look outside the moment, and realize that it's not that bad and that things will be better and that i'm just being wierd. but none of that affects the way i feel.
i feel so lonely sometimes. when my icq is dead and it's 1:35 am and even if i had some friends, they'd all be in bed.
and i need to be more constructive. reading or crafting would make me feel better i think - but i don't have that kind of energy. i resist what would make me feel better. yea, i'm so bright.
so i wait for the cloud to the lift. and i know it will. just give me some time and some room to breathe.