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fuck i hate him...he drives me up the fucking wall...i want him so bad but i hate him at the same time. i saw him yesterday sitting in piazza duomo and i walked past as quickly as possible...i am such a fucking bitch, i dont know why i didnt say hi or return his call...i am a spaz...i guess i dont know how to act around him after what happened...the thing is i have figured out that what i want him from his is merely a good time, i dont want to date him seriously cuz i mean i dont want a fucking relationship in italy, i am leaving at the end of the year, and so really that would not be productive...i am just i think annoyed because i had sooooo much fun with him wink wink and i would really like do "hang" out again, but i dont know how to be like hey buddy why dont we just be fuck buddies, ok, alright...how do you arrange that sort of thing...i guess you dont arrange it, it just happens....well i guess when i see him again, i will be flirty and not creepster mcgee...uughhhhhhh i am so fucking horny...i want him again, and again, and again...wow i need to go watch a movie and settle down...haha