Pity Party
I have realized today how incredibly insecure I am with myself.
I try too hard.
I wish I could just be my natural self.
But then again, what is my natural self??
I have to think of certain people (actually, most people) of being lower than me for me to feel comfortable talking to them.
Isn't that terrible?
I've always felt that something is not right, if I am a machine, a screw is missing somewhere, or oil is missing, making my whole body, my whole psyche rust.
For some reason, I am afraid of being me.
I'm afraid of people not liking me.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
What happened to me?
I used to be so comfortable with myself.
So comfortable in my own skin, not trying to fit into my ideal self.
Enough venting.
Silly, introspective me.
I hope for a resolution.
But what... what has caused my self-esteem to go so low?
I Ponder.
I try too hard.
I wish I could just be my natural self.
But then again, what is my natural self??
I have to think of certain people (actually, most people) of being lower than me for me to feel comfortable talking to them.
Isn't that terrible?
I've always felt that something is not right, if I am a machine, a screw is missing somewhere, or oil is missing, making my whole body, my whole psyche rust.
For some reason, I am afraid of being me.
I'm afraid of people not liking me.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
What happened to me?
I used to be so comfortable with myself.
So comfortable in my own skin, not trying to fit into my ideal self.
Enough venting.
Silly, introspective me.
I hope for a resolution.
But what... what has caused my self-esteem to go so low?
I Ponder.