Ow ow ow
.:'^':.
Okay, so I'm in pain. Things are just bleck these days. I ran 5 miles last night in formation and it cause my old stress fracture to flare up. I am now hobbling around. Even though I was one of about 12 people to fall out of the run, the rest of the cadre know me by name - well last name -- cause I was in so much pain during the run and they wouldn't let me stop. It felt like my leg was going to snap in half. In my dream last night I almost wish that it would have to prove to them that pushing a soldiers well beyond their limits can be very unhealthy. I dunno... I'm just hoping that it will get better.
Classes are still slow and since I started this whole nursing school... starting back to EMT school... I really don't think I have learned much of a damn thing since I've started. I really feel like I have wasted a lot of time. I could have been done by now and to be honest it is very discouraging. Little and little I want to be here, just wishing I was up with John. I'm tired of not seeing him, tired of all the bull shit.
This place is like cancer, there are good days and there are bad days. Lately, so many people and things are becoming cancerous to me and I'm not quite so damn strong to fight it off... thus my mental breakdown last night. Glad it was more internal than external.
Damn, I'm sounding nutty. It will get better.
.:'^':.
Okay, so I'm in pain. Things are just bleck these days. I ran 5 miles last night in formation and it cause my old stress fracture to flare up. I am now hobbling around. Even though I was one of about 12 people to fall out of the run, the rest of the cadre know me by name - well last name -- cause I was in so much pain during the run and they wouldn't let me stop. It felt like my leg was going to snap in half. In my dream last night I almost wish that it would have to prove to them that pushing a soldiers well beyond their limits can be very unhealthy. I dunno... I'm just hoping that it will get better.
Classes are still slow and since I started this whole nursing school... starting back to EMT school... I really don't think I have learned much of a damn thing since I've started. I really feel like I have wasted a lot of time. I could have been done by now and to be honest it is very discouraging. Little and little I want to be here, just wishing I was up with John. I'm tired of not seeing him, tired of all the bull shit.
This place is like cancer, there are good days and there are bad days. Lately, so many people and things are becoming cancerous to me and I'm not quite so damn strong to fight it off... thus my mental breakdown last night. Glad it was more internal than external.
Damn, I'm sounding nutty. It will get better.
.:'^':.