ready, aim, FIRE!
Woah, have you ever felt targeted? I mean out of the blue targeted? So my buddy Lorand ( Mark, whatever) came here from Vermont where he'sd been livining for the last several years. I haven't seen him in two years at least, and I was given the opportunity to surprise him when he went out to play pool with my man. Now, Lyle and I have been pretty careful with telling him that we were dating because Lyle has been friends with him since high school. I met him in college, and we knew that he'd never put it together that we are dating eachother (Cue Disney's "it's a small world") unless it came out directly. Now, He is a person that will have something to say for anything, so rendering him speechless is difficult to accomplish. This would do just that. So, we wanted to surprise him with it. I've been through hell and back with Guy and so what other people think about my dating LYle is nothing to me. We love eachother and have found our match, we're happy.
Here's where the targeting comes in. Our friend brought his girlfriend with him to visit, now this is a really big thing since the girl went through one hell of a time last time she came out here (psychotic ex dragged out buco drama for them, making Kathy pretty upset) so she has been uneasy about coming out. There was a get together I was invited to attend on Sat, to which I would've met the lovely lady that tamed Lorand's heart. Since I was able to drop in on the billiards thing Fri, Lyle and I decided to "come out" to him there, so as not to upset Kathy either. Really, it was all in fun and jest since it was to get a reaction out of him. Again, the man is one who limitless expressions, so to pause him if only for a couple of seconds is a feat in itself. IT was a great time, we were able to catch up and my roomie Sarah came out too. We had a good time and ended the evening at out place, just to talk and chill out while we come down (apologies about Craig's shorts). Then... Lorand gets a phone call. A Particular third party decided to throw some nasty stuff at Kathy about me. Misconceptions that make me look like some shallow, self-centered, scheming bitch who is out to make him miserable and basically throw shit in his face "to make him jealous and mess with him." I was floored to even think that someone would even imagine that from me. I've never wanted to interfere with people's happiness unless I thought it was destuctive (e.g. abusive in all aspects of the word) and here, this innocent woman gets slapped with these things someone says about me. Saying that they are my words, and that I have malice intentions. I just don't know what to think about that. Targeted is a good word for it. I'm angry, hurt, speechless, affronted. Basically because of this, a decided to give Kathy her space, since she's already been through enough this time out here. It sucks because I wanted to meet her, to show here that she shouldn't have to be afraid or worried to meet me. I wanted to be the least reason for anxiety...
Here's where the targeting comes in. Our friend brought his girlfriend with him to visit, now this is a really big thing since the girl went through one hell of a time last time she came out here (psychotic ex dragged out buco drama for them, making Kathy pretty upset) so she has been uneasy about coming out. There was a get together I was invited to attend on Sat, to which I would've met the lovely lady that tamed Lorand's heart. Since I was able to drop in on the billiards thing Fri, Lyle and I decided to "come out" to him there, so as not to upset Kathy either. Really, it was all in fun and jest since it was to get a reaction out of him. Again, the man is one who limitless expressions, so to pause him if only for a couple of seconds is a feat in itself. IT was a great time, we were able to catch up and my roomie Sarah came out too. We had a good time and ended the evening at out place, just to talk and chill out while we come down (apologies about Craig's shorts). Then... Lorand gets a phone call. A Particular third party decided to throw some nasty stuff at Kathy about me. Misconceptions that make me look like some shallow, self-centered, scheming bitch who is out to make him miserable and basically throw shit in his face "to make him jealous and mess with him." I was floored to even think that someone would even imagine that from me. I've never wanted to interfere with people's happiness unless I thought it was destuctive (e.g. abusive in all aspects of the word) and here, this innocent woman gets slapped with these things someone says about me. Saying that they are my words, and that I have malice intentions. I just don't know what to think about that. Targeted is a good word for it. I'm angry, hurt, speechless, affronted. Basically because of this, a decided to give Kathy her space, since she's already been through enough this time out here. It sucks because I wanted to meet her, to show here that she shouldn't have to be afraid or worried to meet me. I wanted to be the least reason for anxiety...