On a Wed, mid morning
The sinuses are better. Still some wicked congestion from time to time, but I have moments of normal olfaction. Since the last update, events have been rolling for me. Picked up my new/used car on Sat. All is good. Well mostly, but I'm happy with it. I have a second job now! It is a job I never thought I'd see myself doing, but I am hoping for much perseverance and success as I work on it. I am a Mary Kay Lady now. Yep, I'm pushing cosmetics, this coming from a person who rarely wears any herself. But I feel good getting into it, and I know that I will only be successful if I really work for it. So the reward is reflective to how hard I really work. Kind of a good thing since I tend to fully commit and give well beyond what I get paid for in other jobs... Here's hoping for clients and good business. I'll have to start working on my friends and their families. If you are interested in trying their product, let me know! I can see what I can do.
Odd thing. This entire week, I've been feeling exceedingly tired. I'll wake up alert, and alright to go, but then I'm dragging bigtime about two hours after I wake up and get started for the day. The dangerous part of that is that is when I am driving to school. Yesterday, I just didn't want to get up and start my day. This morning I had to really concentrate and I was constantly shaking my head to keep my eyes open. I don't know what it is that is on my mind. I feel like I'm shutting down. Perhaps it is financial anxiety... I really don't know tho. It is frustrating tho because I feel so tired, and my mind has a haze around it. I've been really on task and I've been getting things done, but it feels like it isn't enough. Like I'm missing the major point. Almost like I can be doing all this work for nothing. It feels like I'm spinning my wheels and not really getting anywhere. People have been great. My beau has been wonderful. His support is something that I truly appreciate and admittedly depend on ATM. I'm happy to be with him, but I also have this deeper fear that he'd get sick of how much I look to him for support, and how much he gives of himself to me, and want to drop me because of how much he does. This is probably my own insecurities, but they are still true in my eyes. I can't shake this feeling of tiredness. It is frustrating because when I am snuggling with my man, my body just wants to shut down and fall asleep, the security there lets me come down. There, I feel safe. Alright, Enough of that. Time to get to class.
Odd thing. This entire week, I've been feeling exceedingly tired. I'll wake up alert, and alright to go, but then I'm dragging bigtime about two hours after I wake up and get started for the day. The dangerous part of that is that is when I am driving to school. Yesterday, I just didn't want to get up and start my day. This morning I had to really concentrate and I was constantly shaking my head to keep my eyes open. I don't know what it is that is on my mind. I feel like I'm shutting down. Perhaps it is financial anxiety... I really don't know tho. It is frustrating tho because I feel so tired, and my mind has a haze around it. I've been really on task and I've been getting things done, but it feels like it isn't enough. Like I'm missing the major point. Almost like I can be doing all this work for nothing. It feels like I'm spinning my wheels and not really getting anywhere. People have been great. My beau has been wonderful. His support is something that I truly appreciate and admittedly depend on ATM. I'm happy to be with him, but I also have this deeper fear that he'd get sick of how much I look to him for support, and how much he gives of himself to me, and want to drop me because of how much he does. This is probably my own insecurities, but they are still true in my eyes. I can't shake this feeling of tiredness. It is frustrating because when I am snuggling with my man, my body just wants to shut down and fall asleep, the security there lets me come down. There, I feel safe. Alright, Enough of that. Time to get to class.