this is what makes me feel alive
i'm sorry i haven't existed in the past couple months. let's just say i was born again with a higher sense of inspiration. it's caused me to do this...
i've got a few things to say to a few certain people. even if they never read this, or even KNOW i have a eljay, i just have to say it. here goes:
brian fait - please don't talk to me anymore, unless you come up with something nice to say to me and my too-good-for-you sister.
penny - i'm sorry, out of everybody possible, it happened to you. but know that i love you so freaking much, and i would do anything for you, you're wonderful, girl <3
juliet - one leg of the tripod we call JAM... i can't begin to express how amazing you are. i know you always struggle with acceptance and friend-related issues, but if you just remember the saying "this too, shall pass", then it shouldn't seem so bad all the time. i'm sure you've learned by now that you can't hardly trust anybody. this is true, sad to say. BUT, the remedy for deception is a 6-letter word called f.a.m.i.l.y. no matter what, i will always be there for you, on YOUR side, because you mean more to me than life itself.
amber - you put the A in JAM. uhh, literally. well, today's your graduation. i know it's been uncertain up until about 9 this morning? the first think i want to say, that i can't hold in any longer... i am SO proud of you. i know i don't say it often, and hardly ever get a chance, but you mean MORE to me than i think you realize... you're my baby sister, the best friend i'll ever have. nobody has ever come before you, because i know that even if we don't feel this way now, we're in this mess they call "life" together, whether we like it or not. i've only got one thing to say about that: out of everybody, i'm glad it's you.
scott - to the boy who stole my heart: you have given me more love, devotion, inspiration, and happiness than i thought i could ever posess. to know that you feel the same way about me as i do you, is like an 8 month dream i haven't woken up from yet. in my darkest phase, you found me and saved me from myself. i never thought i could have such a deep, meaningful relationship before... and now, no matter what happens, i know that i will never, ever forget you. and i WILL always love you. as they say... you never forget your first true love.