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I feel like I sold myself today. I'm not exactly happy about it.
I feel kinda pathetic actually that I felt the need to do that in order to keep him interested.
He noticed something was wrong. I cried after he left.
I just feel so ---- and I don't want to actually use the word because its not the right one, but I can't think of anything else. And its not his fault, its mine, because I allowed it to happen.
I have to talk to him tonight. He sent me a text asking if there was anything I wanted to tell him because I seemed down. I don't exactly know what he meant by that cause it is a little different than just asking if something is wrong. But whatever, I think I'm just going to tell him what has been worrying me lately. I'd rather do it in person but I don't know if I can wait.
God I frustrate myself. So freaking much.
I just don't want to screw up everything.
I love him too much ♥
But I really need to learn how to calm down. Really.
I feel kinda pathetic actually that I felt the need to do that in order to keep him interested.
He noticed something was wrong. I cried after he left.
I just feel so ---- and I don't want to actually use the word because its not the right one, but I can't think of anything else. And its not his fault, its mine, because I allowed it to happen.
I have to talk to him tonight. He sent me a text asking if there was anything I wanted to tell him because I seemed down. I don't exactly know what he meant by that cause it is a little different than just asking if something is wrong. But whatever, I think I'm just going to tell him what has been worrying me lately. I'd rather do it in person but I don't know if I can wait.
God I frustrate myself. So freaking much.
I just don't want to screw up everything.
I love him too much ♥
But I really need to learn how to calm down. Really.